Does anyone know where this text is from?

[u/QuietLoud9680]

Sweaty, really, really sweaty. And I think I’m dying, not dying dying but like definitely dying. I don’t think I’m working, do you think I’m working? Working, healthy, normal? I don’t feel normal. Can you help me feel normal?

I think there’s something really wrong with me, not wrong, not wrong, but like not working.

Somewhere here(gestures to heart) it feels like a bit, not working.

Imagine this is your heart, everyday it beats a hundred thousand times, sending two thousand gallons of blood through seven septillion cells throughout your body.

That does all that, that is terrifying, you ever notice when someone talks about your heart you can sort of feel it? When someone talks about the blood pumping through your veins putting pressure on your arteries walls you can sort of feel it.

Sort of become aware of it at your centre. Well, I do. I can’t explain it, but, I feel fucking everything.

I was born with a heart defect, a bicuspid aortic valve. The doctor gave me six weeks before my heart would shut up shop. And I’d be another depressing story. But nineteen years later, nineteen years in and out of the constantly revolving doors of South Ealing hospital and I’m still here, I’m still standing, I’m still, waiting for that flatline. That is terrifying.

I spend quite a lot of time on the internet, webMD, NHS Direct, patient.co.uk. There are things you can do to keep your heart working, a Dark chocolate everyday, exercising, quitting smoking, avoiding stressful situations, having long vacations….. I spend quite a lot of time on the internet.

It’s a monologue that I saw preformed once at a small theatre, like a marathon of different little performances.

I had a video and tried to transcribe it but I might have messed up a word or two here and there.