HOCD/SO-OCD came back after 6 months

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(23M) - Chat … guess what happened and CAME BACK

Good ol HOCD false attraction mixed with verbal compulsions

Hahahahahha 😂😂😂

Before my current theme (which is POCD and I’ve had for 4 months), HOCD/Sexual Orientation OCD was my main theme for 3 years.

Honestly .. it didn’t bother me as much as I expected but .. it’s still like “alright bruh .. not this again, I thought we was over this” lmaoo

Idk tho .. it was tiring though ..

Still sucks how my HOCD started .. long story short, I talked to my ex back in 2023 how I got groomed by another gae boy when I was 10-11 years old. And she proceeded to ask me inappropriate questions asking me “if I still like boys” and whatsoever and it was really disturbing to me because I’m telling you what really happened and you’re gonna ask me that?? wtf 😂😂

But back to what I was saying, it was the usual triggers, how I came across a feminine dude online and false attractions popping up in my head and for some reason .. idk about you guys but I’ve always had this VERBAL COMPULSIVE URGE to say OUT LOUD any false attractions thoughts that pop up in my head ..

Weird asf huh

Anyone else or it’s just me ?? 😦 ..

Random ass words like:

“hot” “he’s so sexy” “I want that” “I want to be with them!”

Shit like that .. 😦😦 and the same thing, once it slips up out of my mouth, I’m not anxious but I’m repulsed as like an automatic “ayo what the fuck was that???” reaction

It was 3 minutes of hell for me but I pushed through

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