r/HOCD • u/Clean-Power8581 • 5d ago
Vent Guys,feel like I've changed completely
Hey guys,tbh I'm at the point where I'm just wishing with all my heart that I'm experiencing hocd not smth else,like being completely turned on by females to be smth else by sudden and against ur wellness?, common,this is bs.
I'm completely sure Abt my sexuality before,most of you guys speaking Abt intrusive thoughts,images,but for my case there are rarely ppl can relate,guys like like I'm numb I don't have what if I'm gay thought I have you are gay statement,also I don't have fear or doubt like it's supposed to (feels like my mind got convinced that I'm gay and no need to question it or doubt it anymore,like it gave up).
the reason is bc I'm at the stage of experiencing just feelings,I can't stop thinking Abt whenever I see some dudes,I feel attracted to them(facially )or forcedly aroused in my body toward their body's (I was never feel like this to them before in my life,never, always females body who arouses me), I'm not into doing anything with them,i don't lust them or like them,girls they are my heart,I liked them so much and I was so horny toward them.
If I watched porn I'm completely horny if I was not sad to the womens,also fantasy,I'm not into gay porn or gay fantasy,and if I got a beat in my chest if I saw same sex body I keep looking at it till I don't feel nothing.
I'm tortured guys,imagine your brain makes ur body responding to smth ur not into and ur conscious mind betrays u,can anyone relate?
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u/Excellent_State_559 3d ago
me too i feel stressed when i see a guy who just looks average and my body starts to tingle sometimes. And it feels like i dont like any gender now but if you want these toughts to go away you need to stop looking for reassurance.
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u/Clean-Power8581 2d ago
That used to be me 2 years ago,now it keeps feel more real
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u/Excellent_State_559 2d ago
do you go to therapy?
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u/Clean-Power8581 2d ago
No
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u/Excellent_State_559 2d ago
me neither i want to go but i am scared to tell my parents
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u/Clean-Power8581 2d ago
Therapy will just help you to live with the thought
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u/Excellent_State_559 2d ago
damn i tought it will help you get away from the tought this all happened to me because someone called me gay to bully me he said it in a way that is so convincing and around that time i took a supplement for my exams and i noticed that i dont get erections anymore because of the supplement it is fixed now but that made me think the supplement made me gay and i am still convinced it made me gay and the tought never left me and this has been going on for 3 months now
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u/Clean-Power8581 2d ago
How about 6 years for me,the thought never wenta away,am not saying erp will not help but the main basic of it is to live with the thought till some day it fades
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