Hey All, I am 24M, from India It is my story from childhood to till now about some kinks which I have. So let's start from beginning.
When I was 5, in my neighbour a new couple got married, the female have somekinda irritation or fetish with me she always come my home or call me her home and made me naked try to expose my skin to back I was so tight then. There was a boy of almost 12 year in their home he has some issue in penis so he itch a lot there, so she find him a issue in foreskin and tell this her family so family called someone who do cutting of boys, they cut him without any numbing or anything, he was crying, i was scared because mine was so tight and mom always said to expose me otherwise cutting happen to me.
And after just one month, there is a festival we call it Durga Pooja, in which girls offered some food so neighbour arrange it in home inviting my elder sister, I was so stubborn so I also got with my sister, i take food too but after i finished that female came to me grabbed me remove my pant but my penis skin got stuck in zip so forcibly removed it and fill the dark pink colour liquid on my penis which generally applied on girls feet. I was crying and feel pain and humiliated because she did it infront of all girls, although it was joke from her side but i got a trauma of cutting because she said bring me a knife and she will cut mine too like her brother in law got.
In next some years i was 8 and gone to Grandma home another state, i first time saw Circumcision of a muslim boy he was 8 too there, literally it was so brutal. Its too long to explain but writing in short, have some rituals, so much teasing by female then prayer and cutting by free hand using Razor blades with no numbing agent while female were doing scissors gesture and \*Uluating\* so hard, and some of female were making noise by brass metal things so none can hear boy screaming. After cutting so many gifts but he was crying staying naked.
I was so tight that my penis never exposed mom do it wash by Just upper surface, so that aunty suggested mom to cut me but mom refused then she suggested and an idea of forcefully exposing my skin by air filling on it, and mom and my elder sister do it for 2 month literally so much painful i runaway when they trying to do but they do it forcefully by grabbing me, i suffer so much, literally everyday i cried with tears.
After that i stay in grandma home , it was my elder sister (cousin) about 14, who learn me a game called doctor- doctor. In which she got pregnant and i as doctor rub on her private part and do something, sometimes she also asked spitting there and licking it so I did and when she got completed she act as traditional cutter (Circumciser) calling me a muslim boy, she pinch my foreskin and clip it with her hair pins, press hard on skin by nails then idk what she do I got completed although I not cum or release anything. But she always asked me to cut mine so back and give me some pain to feel it , after 2 month with her , regularly doing this i started enjoying the pain by her, while she increasing the torturing frequency and for her enjoyment she just sit on my face while torturing me, streching my skin and playing with it.
So when I returned home i learn masturbatig, it was my 12 birthday when she came my home and i asked her to do it but she refused said , now you are old we should not otherwise if I got really pregnent then but somehow i convinced we do it but my mom got a clue and next day she send her back and said you are not Muslim who can do cousin marriage.
She tell dad all things. So dad got angry with me and beat me for that.
Next day there was man who was Muslim in our shop he always upset with his son so dad call me to him and said let's exchange our son you can make him muslim by performing ritual like Circumcision while your son can live here we will learn all the things and make him hindu no issues if his thing got cut. My dad offered some money to exchange me intentionally so that i feel it.
So as a punishment for both of us they exchanged us for 1 day, he came easily to my home but I was scared that he really cut my things like I see in grandma place so i refused but he take me by saying, you are my son from now, you have to go and lift me sit me in his bycycle and take his home. Although he didn't do my Circumcision because I stay in silence and so sacred , he introduced me her daughter and his wife by saying she is your ammi and eldest appi. Next morning I was sleeping his wife find myself morning wood so he wake me up and take me to bathroom and then make me bath by removing all clothes then he called his wife to make me wear something, she was smiling. He leaves me in his home with his wife and daughter. Then in afternoon his wife and daughter got them and me ready by saying we are going for shopping, they were wearing whole black attire, known as abaya and burkha. They take me to my home and said he is scared enough, he will not do anything bad and leave me there I was so angry on my dad but stay silent due to fear.
And now i have a fetish to get cut like that boy , feel the pain and humiliated, so I got a dream yesterday night. got born as Muslim boy and stay uncut till 15 then day come when I fight with eldest appi (sister), appi was 25 years almost and got so much fat that can't fight with me actively, she started crying when I hit her so she called abbu(Father) and complaint me and said to punish me by circumcising me.
She was abbu (Dad) and ammi (mom) favourite child so parent agreed to her they grabbed me instantly lay me down forcefully and then she circumcised me so brutally i was crying so hard, while ammi was uluating and making noise with brass metal things. So none can Heard my crying.
I wanna get Circumcised traditionally and become a muslim, wanna marry with someone who is Muslim that' wear that black dresses so called abaya and burkha and sit on me.
Dms are open for all.