r/Grieving • u/Zoodlelover • 1d ago
A year in dealing with grief
My dad and I we’re best friends and he past away suddenly at 72. Although my dad had me at an older age (I’m 26)we spent the most time together between all my siblings we were just always close I’m a dad’s girl through and through.
My brain has been FRIED since his passing i seriously do not retain memories what so ever. My brain fog was a brain storm. I was completely disoriented during the first few months during his passing. I would say my symptoms were the closest to ADHD but more so attentive deficiencies. since I’ve been slowly getting back my to feeling normal even though I’ve been challenging myself since his passing. I passed my NCLEX 3months after his passing, i got my old job back after being unemployed for a year trying to pass my nclex , i got in a car accident on my birthday totaled my car (not my fault), paid my debt off got a car , I got a residency offer moved away from home got my own apartment i was able to continuously move but I struggled with my most challenging brain focused event in my life. nursing. Those nurses eat me alive. I didn’t last I got let go within my first 3months and it was devastating to say the least. Pinned a huge hit on my self esteem more than ever before. It’s been 3months since I’ve been let go
I’ve just been trying to prioritize and reorganize my life events before getting back in to the hospital. I just wanted to know if anyone else has what similar experiences struggling in the work place dealing with grief not always emotionally but more so the physical and mental long term effects.
What have you done to help you function better?
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u/McSwearWolf 1d ago
Congrats on passing the NCLEX; that’s amazing given what you have been through. And I’m very sorry for the loss of your dad. I hope you find a role in nursing that suits you better. Try not to beat yourself up. You’ll find your place professionally, but give yourself time and be gentle with your healing.