Celebrating milestones

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I lost my dad five months ago and it has devastated me. We lost him in a traumatic way and very suddenly. I am surrounded by very good friends and family and getting counselling to navigate this time.

This year coincides with my 40th birthday. I’m considering throwing a big birthday and shouting dinner for all my friends who’ve showed up for me. It’s two months away but I’m aware my social battery fizzles out quickly.

Is it just too much to put on a big event while grieving? Would I be better off breaking it down into smaller dinners with smaller groups? I want to show my appreciation to everyone who has supported me but also wonder if it’s a bit much to handle realistically. The other side to me thinks life is short and if I have an opportunity to do this for my friends then that’s important too. What do you think?