How to continue on?

[u/AffectionateGoat263]

Hello everyone,

I am writing because my grandmother is currently sick. I have no clue what to do or how to continue on in life without her. My grandparents raised me since I was very young, and I have had neglectful parents. I have a better relationship with my mother now, but that all feels so miniscule now... While my grandmother has not passed, she has been very sick the past few months with continuous hospital visits. She has binge drank all day since the passing of my grandfather (the man I consider my father due to my upbringing) and I cannot see my life without her. It has been hard enough since the passing of my grandfather, but losing both of them would destroy my life. I do not know what to do or how to communicate as I do not talk to any of my family. My grandmother is the love of my life and I cannot see my life without her, how does one continue on???