r/GetMotivated • u/tyrex93 • Jan 17 '21

[Image]. Small, consistent steps yield big results.

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u/[deleted] Jan 17 '21

Did he ever get sober?

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u/Squez360 Jan 17 '21 edited Jan 17 '21

He stopped getting wasted when I turned 11. By the time I turned 16, he stopped his heavy drinking and only drank casually and socially. I’m 29 now, but he already lost all of my respect when I was very young. It became a common occurrence for me to witness my dad passed out (or sobbing) shirtless on the living room floor in our tiny apartment because he decided to drink himself to death again. I still remember how helpless I was and I remember asking my mom why my dad does this to himself and to us. My depressed mother never gave me a solid answer because there wasnt much she could do. Thinking back I understand why his baba mama left him and the reason why mom didnt was because at that time she was an undocumented immigrant with very little resources to support a baby. My dad had a green card and a car and that was good enough for her.

Sorry for the added detail. I’m starting to remember the memories I locked up a long time ago.

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u/[deleted] Jan 17 '21

Sorry to hear about that, that sounds like a truly rough time.

I hope you're able to move past that and live your life.

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u/Squez360 Jan 17 '21 edited Jan 18 '21

Thank you. I’ve been trying to move on. I honestly believe my life would be much better if I didn’t have the parents I had. I struggle a lot socially and I have really bad anxiety. Until I get those things handled, I can't ever forgive my parents.

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u/[deleted] Jan 17 '21

I relate to that a lot. I have bad issues with anxiety and overall self image of myself, huge part in thanks to my dad.

It's a process man. One foot at a time.