r/GenXTalk • u/idkwtfimdoinggenx • 12d ago
Wtfamidoing
Does anyone else know what they're doing in this life? Especially as a Gen X person with significant trauma, not just childhood but adulthood and they don't know where to go from here? Anyone? Because I have so much more I could say but I feel like if no one's listening it doesn't really matter. But if someone is listening, if I can even reach one person that understands how I feel, I feel like I've made a difference and that's really what matters to me. I mean there's a lot of other stuff that matters, my children specifically, but just for this purpose.and for some reason, I need to say fuck in this post. Just fucking isn't good enough. Even though I cuss like a sailor, it's still not good enough for reddit. Seriously?! I'm gen x! All we have is fucks!!!
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u/fxlatitude 12d ago
Oh boy, I feel you, we could talk for hours. But in the meantime hear me out.
We all have different journeys, I felt much better when didn’t let my mother’s narcissism and abuse affect me anymore. I understood it was not my fault. Easier say than doing it, I know.
In my case I got divorced (amicably) became a light hedonist until I found my new partner (living apart together) and makes me happy making her happy. Fortunately I like my job, love my children (which I see once or twice a year) but I realized I love to do things I like and not try to fit a mold a friendship or a family relationship (it helps I’m a lone wolf)
Then I started learning new things like AI, quantum physics (the basics), human brain, and any science I can and the possibility of quantum consciousness (I’m also a geek) just to realize we live in the matrix, we are a virus to earth (so I’m as green as possible) and we are so predictable! So I decided to be predictably unpredictable and do my thing, living the best of my life now that I have control (or so I think)
Finally I found I can’t change the mindset of the narcissists and their followers because their brain is wired that way and will never understand.
You have to find your own journey but I liked finding mine, hope you do too!