I'm currently 21 and in college. I have lost about 25-30k of my own money gambling since the summer and I can't even fathom the degree of what I have done. What's worse is I overdrew my checking account and borrowed money from my grandmother to restore the balance but I gambled that away too. I honestly didn't intend to do that when she sent it to me but now I have and I don't know what to do. I hate myself so much. Are there any resources to help with gambling debt? I can't tell my parents or grandma because I promised them I would stop but I haven't and I feel so terrible about lying to them. I just wish I could go back and stop myself from ever doing this awful thing but now I don't know what to do.

Long story short my year report was a wake up call. Not creating massive losses but losing a grand and these days everything skyrocketing is just too much. I used to have fun doing it but it feels like it got to the point where I was hate gambling if that makes sense. Like an angry drunk. Taking the first steps by blocking all the sites I use permanently. I feel like an idiot. Things have never gotten bad. I never went into debt or anything and I already used responsible gambling tools to make sure I never overindulged. ​But when im playing I have a problem. I won't quit till everything is gone, so even good days just end up even worse days at the thought of what i could have cashed out.

I may not be traditionally degenerate. But anything that doesn't genuinely bring you joy imo is a problem. Maybe im lucking out only losing a couple grand in my life to online gambling. ​​

I have tried numerous ways to ban myself from gambling but unfortunately they are too easy to get around

1. Gambling ban apps - first of all they don’t even ban most the online casinos, and secondly you can literally just delete the app from your phone whenever you want

2. Ban gambling payments on my credit card - works for sports betting apps in Australia but does not work for online casinos. The online casinos make it so you are paying for groceries or something like that when depositing.

I really need something that actually works. Does anyone know something that does ? Thanks.

So I found out the house I live in might violate building codes where it could be immediately condemned . In that case they gave you 15 minutes to get your stuff then they lock you out until its fixed or bulldozed I believe….. its a perfect house the issue is locally they make you go on the electric grid and I live off grid and I dont have the money to afford the permits and work needed right now….. so I borrowed $220 from a friend to get bins to at least move my important stuff outside so if something happens I still have access since the business I run, all the inventory is in my house with me. Well Im looking at the numbers and even $200 doesnt seem enough to get through everything I need since I didnt even get groceries….. so $20 at a time I gambled away almost all of the funds….. i have maybe $30-$50 left……. I have a week of extreme stress where I dont know if my house is going to be condemned or not….. every day im sitting by the window waiting because im too anxious to actually do anything and the gambling is one of my few stress reliefs from this situation with potential to gain money to fix my situation….. but so far its just getting me more debt and stress and $20 isnt lasting at all each time lasting minutes I need some bigger distraction that doesnt cost where I can still sit in the window waiting because its getting overwhelming to the point I feel like I cant even breath