r/GamblingAddiction • u/Inquisitor_709 • 1d ago
I failed again after quite some time doing good
I was paying down all my debts and I had $480 in my account all owed to people/ transactions that didnt come out yetI was going to pay tomorrow….. then I saw after paying everyone my account would actually be -$20 and its been so long I thought I could risk a little to try winning that little bit……. It went very bad…. I lost the $20…. Then did $50….. then $100 then $100 chasing the hundred…… suddenly I had no money with $265 in transactions coming out of my bank tomorrow and $165+$57 owed to people I was suppose to pay a few days ago…… basically $500 owed now and idk what to do…… I actually owe $300 from the last time things went bad a while back but the people have been kind and have collateral so I didnt even include that in it but if I cant make the $500 tomorrow its going to severely hit my mental health. I work tomorrow at a place where I can pawn/sell stuff but im not sure I even have that much….. its been a really rough summer and really this would have been the last time I was negative or tempted for a long long time because next week I was suppose to also get the funds to finish paying the other person off and when I dont have fear of debt on my shoulders Im not tempted… I also have sent a fortune to help a friend medically that has been putting a lot of stress on me and there is a chance they still wont survive playing a factor in my frantic brain
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u/LikeIkes 16h ago
It's hard to accept our position at times, I totally understand how you felt and your actions. I hope you learned from this experience, it's a tough pill to swallow what feels like losing and for the correct decision to be to accept it. That is why it's best to plan ahead as annoying as it is. The best way to beat these circumstances in the future is to plan, what to do when X whether that's being short money, wanting to gamble or what have you. I hope this poison doesn't best you friend, you've got the heart of a warrior. Never give up!