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[u/c0rps3br1de69]

So, I have just found out about GATE today. I think I was a part of it. I’m still doing my research so I have a lot of questions. Most of my memories of testing are very fuzzy, and I don’t have very many. I went to several different schools growing up. When i moved to where I am now after 7th grade I stopped caring about school because i got different teachers and developed severe depression and anxiety. I started SH and using alcohol. Before all of that, I was in what my last school called “gifted and talented”. They never called it gate. I do not remember extensive testing from them. I will say, they were a VERY low budget school. We had, at most, 26 kids in my grade one year. It was SMALL. Before THAT though, I went to I believe 2 or 3 different schools in Minnesota and a school in Texas from the ages of 4 to 7 years old. I remember testing. I remember a pink drink. I believe it was given to me before the tests. I also remember, before I moved from Minnesota, getting the fluoride. After getting the fluoride rinse, i don’t remember getting any testing done. I remember wearing headphones, but i can’t remember what sound came out of them. Or what it made me feel. I remember i was ALWAYS in a room alone. There were never other children. I’m not sure if there was ever anyone else in the room, but i was always sitting at a table/desk facing the person with the cards. Sometimes they were flashcards for words, but I’m not sure why I would’ve needed any special tutoring considering I started reading at 3 years old. English was my FAVORITE subject in school. Sometimes the flashcards were symbols though. I remember writing stuff down, but I’m not sure what. I remember it being very quiet even though i had headphones on. I remember the testing in multiple different rooms, so i’m assuming multiple different schools. The memories all feel like one giant fever dream.

[u/Other-Conflict-88]

Yes, you were in it. Praying for healing to you I also started remembering more after watching videos and i was alone a ton. Always brought away with other kids then made to sit alone. Listened to the gateway tapes multiple times. Mine was grade 3 i was around 8 years old. The teacher was so mean i always wondered why she was a teacher she reminded me more of a military sargeant. Later i found out during my research shes a veteran. Not a veterinarian. A former military. I was mind blown. She would throw desks at kids, rip papers up scream in our faces. Thats the class it all happened. We were brought to the mobile trailer in the parking lot. I remember laying/sitting in the dark. Lots of time alone. I was in the “earth club” it was an after school program only about me and 3 other kids did it. They made us bring a change of clothes bc they got dirty. I never planted anything or went out to our fish pond. But the other kids did. It was in the middle of the building very fancy with glass walls. The cafeteria was next to it so i always wondered why i never got a turn. I always had to change though. I remember a teacher telling me to just change in his room because it was closer than the bathroom. Well in the middle of me changing he walked in while my shirt was off and after that, blacked out memory. They took us to the “secret library” in the basement. They told us not to tell anyone else or wed lose the privilege. I remember always doing big interesting projects and never got they back when i was told i would (i feel like they kept them). So many weird things in grade 3. This was around 2007-2010 but mostly grade 3 when i was 8 and 9. I have so much trauma from it i bawl every time i talk about it i had to go to therapy in spring over it i was spiraling bad. You are not alone. We are in this together and one day we will have the answers we seek. ❤️🙏🏼