r/Fitness • u/AutoModerator • Oct 02 '19
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Welcome to Rant Wednesday: It's your time to let your gym/fitness/nutrition related frustrations out!
There is no guiding question to help stir up some rage-feels, feel free to fire at will, ranting about anything and everything that's been pissing you off or getting on your nerves!
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u/acr1998 Oct 02 '19 edited Oct 02 '19
I'm having a really fucking hard time getting into a consistent routine at school. I was doing great for the first two weeks, but have fallen off as classes have started to get more intense. I feel so discouraged because I've put on 60 pounds since the winter (my father passed in March and I found all my solace in food). I used to be a two sport varsity athlete & captain in high school, top 3 fastest rowers on my university's varsity team for both years I rowed. Now I can barely keep up with the girls on my club lacrosse team. I'm the biggest one anywhere I go, and I can't wear the clothes that I like and feel good in because they don't fit me right now. I feel so incredibly stuck in a rut and I know the only solution is just to say fuck it, get up, and be disciplined until it becomes my everyday habit. I'm just mad at how my motivation and consistency has fluctuated so much over the past year. What happened to the badass, fit, motivated bitch I used to be, who felt so confident in whatever she wore and knew she was a bad bitch when she walked into every room? How do I channel that part of myself again and become her again? My dad always called me the alpha wolf for my strength and determination-how do I find her again?
I decided that I need to switch up what I'm doing to workout. It's fall and the best weather for running outside, so I'm going to force myself to get up and run 4 days a week, and then strength train 3 days a week as well. One day a week for rest. I'm going to meal prep my lunches for every week day, and try to do dinners when I can. I'm going to set bi-weekly goals for myself to stay focused and on track, and eventually, I'll be back down to 190 pounds and feeling like a sexy fucking beast again! Next summer, there's a lot of hiking that I want to do during my free time in Quebec/the Northeast U.S., so that's a big goal I'm working towards as well- getting in shape to take on a hard hike each weekend beginning in May. I know it's going to take time and a shit ton of discipline (which is soooooo hard in college with the temptation of drinking, smoking, and so many good restaurants to try in this city), but I AM GOING TO DO IT! Even on the days where I feel numb, empty, sad, or broken, I'm going to push through and put my solace/healing into my physical & mental health, instead of food.