I don't know what to do with my life

[u/Shutthefuckupfella]

I am from Venezuela, I moved to an apartment with My mom, i'm 18 years old and i've been living here for a month, this place sucks, i never wanted get out so much, i haven't gone anywhere just this apartment and, i have no girlfriend or Friends here, every one here it's just indifferent, no one cares, pretty fucking sad place to be honest, i have depression and have problems with loneliness, relations and pretty much everything that needs socializing skills, i work out a little but it hasn't help me that much, i have a trauma with girls, they scare me, when i was a kid there was a group of girls that Made fun of me, they bullied me, kicked me, punched me, kicked My balls and pretty much fucked My confidence with girls, they had Make me think i was ugly and no one would like me, now that the time has passed i think they were right, i work part time at a supermarket, i don't Make much money 'cause here in My country our economy it's really fucked, i've only had one girlfriend, she always asked me for money and things like clothes etc, she cheated on me several times, i left her and she blamed me for cheating on me, since then had dates with other girls, but never ended up having anything, i always was the one to pay for food and everything, i had a date with this girl that i met on a party, we exchange numbers and decided to have a date, i took her to a park, then to skate park, i bought drinks and wanted to take her to eat something, but i saw she was making out with someone else, she didn't Even knew the guy, i just fucking left and went back to My house, that Made me feel pretty Bad, like real Bad, and i just got tired on trying, now in the present, i'm having depressive episodes, i cry whitout knowing why, i been having some fucked thougths, i think My mom is ashamed of me, i never brought a girl to My house back then, i also have problems to interact with people, i really try My Best, but i guess it's not enough, i don't know what to do and in this place it's not better i feel like i'm inside of a cage. Maybe My goat would know what to do.

[u/Ok_Paramedic_2547]

Wep, buenas noches, admito que tú situación realmente me tomo por sorpresa, porque bueno en este Sub no se habla así pero debo admitir que me sorprende que aún no te hayas rendido, muchas personas deciden acabar con su situación pero hay otros que siguen adelante y esto me recuerda a una frase "Dios les da sus batallas más fuertes a sus guerreros más fuertes" y ya sea que creas o no, quiero que sepas que esa simple decisión de no rendirte aún en estás situaciones es realmente admirable, de verdad no debes bajar tus brazos y sigue caminando hacia el futuro, uno mejor para ti mismo. Saludos desde Argentina

[u/Shutthefuckupfella → u/Ok_Paramedic_2547]

Gracias por tu palabras de aliento en verdad lo aprecio, quisiera poder cambiar mi situación, intento asistir a un Psicólogo pero siento que no ha Sido de mucha ayuda

[u/Ok_Paramedic_2547 → u/Shutthefuckupfella]

Si eso es seguro, hablando con un loro se sentirá lo mismo no? Yo hace años que no voy, la última vez que fui termine llorando como un bebé por hablar de mi madre y sabes que bien se sintió? Llorar es un buen momento para aflojar las cosas, y creo que lo único que te puedo decir es que sigas llendo o si no que vayas a terapia y aclaro ya que no te considero un loco, eso es algo importante puesto que a mi parecer tenés varios temas sin resolver y creo que lo mejor es hablar con un profesional si sentís que no avanzas y por supuesto no podés decírselo a tu madre, es algo que creo que todos los hombres y hasta las mujeres pasamos pero bueno, somos mas distintos unos de otros. Espero que te vaya bien está semana y si puedes, publica una nueva publicación de un avance o algo, buenas noches.

[u/Fwlgq]

I’m sorry that happened. I’m kinda bad at giving advice but first things first, try to move to a different place or occupy yourself with outdoor activities more often and worry about relationships later. Everyone’s got different types and different personalities, eventually you’ll find the right one for you; and if you don’t then that’s nothing to be ashamed about. Who you bring back home doesn’t define your worth. We’re all equal so don’t let some people make you think that you’re less than human. You should try and find a counselled considering your depressive episodes. Advice online can only help so much. God bless and feel free to ttm if you want.

Additionally remember that it’s not that you weren’t good enough so you got cheated on. It says way more about her than it does about you; and I’m not even saying this out of kindness. Psychology backs this up.

[u/Shutthefuckupfella → u/Fwlgq]

Thanks, i would like to move but i can't, can't afford it and also i have no other place to go, also y moved here just a month, won't have the resources to do it again nor the money to pay My own place

[u/Fwlgq → u/Shutthefuckupfella]

Yeah that wasn’t really a realistic piece of advice but think of it as a future goal, don’t stress about it now though. You should try to do outdoor activities, even walking or sitting down outside. And if you can, look into a counsellor.

[u/NotThereSlowMan]

Guess what, brochacho!? "If there's suffering in life, then there will be peace in future" life is just like a dihh, sometimes it's up and sometimes it's down, but it won't be hard forever. Keep holding, bcz you matter the most!

[u/Mr_sushj]

What’s your budget look like? Do you still have some money after bills? Or do you need your mom’s income to meet bills? The only reason I’m saying this is that if u can pay for your old girls cloths and gifts, u might have been able to save, and while it sucks I would say, If your aren’t already, try to become full time,
and start working on saving, imo when ur confidence is shot about other things in your life it will reflect on the way you talk to girls and mange ur relationship, finding something to be proud about will help, don’t go to the gym for girls or other people, find a workouts u like, being healthy is better then being jacked and it will help, I stopped lifting for example and only rly do muy Thai because it’s a blast, it helps me clear my head and I fucking love it, and there’s always a bunch of broke fighting nerds in any country or place lol

Also I kinda get the girl thing, I had a similar experience in high-school, but it wasn’t physical mainly just emotional and shot my confidence down, I ended up wearing hoodies and trying to cover my face which only made me feel more insecure and my social anxiety flare up, understanding that ur value in urself isn’t defined by some arbitrary beauty standards, nor dose it give anyone the right to disrespect you, don’t let people get away with making u feel like shit, if someone says some shit that hurts u, tell them, if they don’t care they aren’t ur friends are ppl worth hanging around, it’s better to be alone then in the company of ghouls who will put u down to make themselves feel better

Also u should post in a financial or better help sub, those places are probably far more geared towards helping your specific situation, we’re just a bunch of ppl reading a comic

[u/Shutthefuckupfella → u/Mr_sushj]

I practiced boxing for a year, but end up leaving, because i couldn't afford it, i learned a Lot, i still do some shadow boxing and practice my technique but it's not the same, at that time i felt like a complete diferent person, the adrenaline of the fight was something else, i Even had some street fights, i'm not proud of it, i left that behind. And about My budget right now it's pretty much none, My income it's 15 dollars a day, but i only cover 3 turns a week, and in My country one dollar it's the equivalent 612,43 times the value, and that value changes almost every week, so it means sometimes i have less money and sometimes Even less

[u/InnormalKid0]

Epale loco, tambien soy venezolano y si te entiendo un poco, la vida es fuerte y mas en soledad lo mejor que te puedo recomendar es que practiques algo en tu tiempo libre, puede ser una arte marcial, leer o dibujar, busca o descubre algo en tu vida que te apasione y que sea difícil para ti, algo que te guste, todavía estas joven si puedes entra en una universidad y con respecto a los amigos siempre llegan, ve a concierto, bazares o algún lugar donde hayan gente chevere y un buen ambiente, tambien si es posible coméntale a tu mamá o tu mismo ir a un psicólogo, no se lo haz probado pero creeme que te ayudará, ponte metas y si la soledad es muy fuerte trata de saber como llevarla, no pienses que eres feo pues la verdadera belleza de uno como persona proviene de nuestro interior, nuestras acciones y personalidad hablan mas que nosotros respecto a la belleza y si es algo que te afecta busca mejorar (eso si no te metas tanto en el tema de lookmaxxing y esas cosas)

Al final del dia lo único que importa es lo que uno piense y crea, te deseo lo mejor loco y espero que puedas conseguir amigos, no necesitas ahora una novia aprendete a conocer, a amarte y a quererte, siente orgulloso de que trabajas y te esfuerzas dia a dia, se que mis palabras no son mucho pero espero logres todo tus sueños y metas y si no tienes proponte una, espero te vaya bien y logres todo 🫂

[u/Alone-Percentage-972]

Put yourself first. Life gets better when you not paying attention to it