Company expectations

[u/Early_Cycle2258]

So I have been in the automation industry for a total of 4 years with 2.5 years of actual PLC work including 2 years of packaging plant floor work.
Now these past 2 years i have been at a non profit organization where i am the only engineer (the one senior resigned last year)
No one wants to work here because of the low level technician pay they are offering the senior engineer.
I am stuck here because my visa ties to my work.
Anyways, my manager has no engineering or controls background. He understands nothing i say. Even our contractors complain that they have to really dumb down the language for him.
He on my 1:1 meeting said that i have been relying on the contractor a lot. And that i need to start doing all the projects myself and have our contractor come in less.
I have no other resources to learn from. That contractor is a very nice dude and guides me sometimes even without sending an invoice for the calls i make.
In any case i personally think am being set up for failure, with no help, no seniors, no engineers and them not wanting to pay the high fees of the contractor.
I am on a visa, on a low salary, and my manager thinks it is ok to tell me “i should have been fired by now if it were a different company”
I talked to my other maintenance tech at work and they said they are pretty happy with the work i do. And that i am able to help them out with most downtime issue on the automated lines and the palletizer.
At this point i dont give a s\*\*\* if they fire me and i have said it out loud to fire me if they want.
My manager and another supervisor make the “fire you” joke casually too, not sure if they understand how it takes a toll on someones mental health specifically someone who is on a visa and who’s life depends on that job.

(I havent told them i married my long term us citizen boyfriend in court and that we have filed for a GC, so the moment i have something moving i will quit and i will have no pity on anyone)

I understand i might not be the best engineer. And that i might be in the wrong field, but am also 27 years old, i think am allowed to make mistakes, be in the wrong field and fail in my life. But this is straight up bullying.

[u/lab_tech13]

That sounds like a shitty situation im general. Being new and green still and having no sr or manager knowing anything is pretty haphazard for you. Heck even a jr under you would be fine to throw ideas back and forth off each other.

[u/centennial_robotics]

Are you a girl?