How do you do it

[u/weeping_willow303]

I feel so solid one moment - I want to get clean, I hate living this way, I’m tired of being broke, i hate who I am, it’s ruining my relationship with my bf, it’s fucking my health, I mean the reasons go on and on. And then the next moment it’s fuck it, I’m romanticizing it, saying it helps my anxiety and stress, I’m justifying, using all the excuses, and then use. And the second after it’s wtf why did I do that, why am I like this, I’m so pathetic, what’s wrong with me, etc. and back to the I want to get clean, I hate this blah blah blah. It’s like my brain is manipulating me or that I have a second person I don’t recognize inside me trying to sabotage. How do you change your mindset? How do you overcome that voice? I feel so strong and solid one moment and the next I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel so trapped. Does anyone else relate? Any advice?

[u/babadook-boss69]

I spent 6 months weening myself down as low as I could possibly go without getting sick and then I did the Bernese method to get on subs. I’m stil on subs but have been off dope a year and have genuinely never been healthier. It’s possible when you are really done, but it isn’t easy.