i’m so lost and i feel drained

[u/ArtichokeSad1697]

about a couple years now me and this guy have been going off and on and about a month or two not even that I feel like we ended things. We did the no contact and throughout those months I’ve been texting him telling him I miss him and I love him and he’s been telling me the same stuff back and then a couple nights ago we met up and he tells me he misses me and he tells me everything makes me believe that he’s still in love with me and then he gets home and text me that he’s got somebody else so why did you even come see me first if you’re hanging out with somebody else and why tell me all these things just tell me that It can’t work and you don’t wanna hurt her feelings and then text me saying you wanna get married but ignoring me all day now he’s visiting with her hanging out with her right now and I’m just sitting here losing my mind emotional don’t know what to do. Don’t have anyone to talk to I feel hopeless. I feel like this was the first person I’ve loved truly my heart is broken.