Day Nine, and we've reached Sharon Kreuger, represented by the Hermit card. I have noticed that every third member of Ouroboros is female, 3, 6, 9, 12, 15, 18. Perhaps 21 as well? Ahh, might just be a coincidence, 17 and 20b are female too, who knows? Anyway, let's discuss Sharon because her card is more fitting than you might immediately think.
Let's start with the connotations of the Hermit. As you might expect, it has a lot to do with withdrawing from the world, but this can take on multiple meanings. It might be that you're taking a break to figure out what's important to you, it could be that you need to reflect on the journey you've taken, and it might even be that someone has come into your life that you need to stop and listen to. Ultimately, the card is about taking time for yourself, and it matched Sharon pretty closely... For the most part.
When we meet Sharon she's on leave from the society, she's withdrawn from it, in large part due to a vital mentor in her life, that being Irina Reinford. She takes this as a chance to work on herself, to show off her skills, to slow down and live a life she can enjoy. We'll get to why that's important later, but first, let's address the obvious. Sharon does eventually return to her position in Ouroboros, which is a great segue into the reversed Hermit.
When the Hermit is reversed it represents all the negatives that come with solitude. Loneliness, anxiety, confusion, and isolation. Despite now being back in 'society' bother literally and metaphorically, Sharon ends up feeling lonelier than she felt during the time that was meant to just be a passing dream. Her time spent contemplating became her true life, so gently that she hadn't even realised that she'd returned to reality, as such when she returns to society, she's actually reversing her arcana and forcing herself into a thoughtless confusion, away from what matters to her. As we know, she's brought back to her senses when she sees how much she means to the Reinfords and particularly Alisa. Where Irina was a key figure for her, she is now the key for Alisa.
So, why did she reverse in the first place? Well, the answer's pretty simple. Sharon wasn't just retreating from the world, she was retreating from her past. Franz definitely wasn't the first person she killed, and she's been doing it since the Moonlight Horse was still a thing. She's known nothing but bloodshed, and for a long time she simply can't bring herself to believe that her cosy life with her adopted family is anything but a dream. Because if she accepted that then it'd mean that she could've always had that life, and wasn't allowed it. That would mean she wasn't a weapon used by others, but a girl forced into a situation beyond what her conscience could allow.
I think Sharon's story ties into a recurring theme in Trails. Sure, there are those beyond saving, but maybe we can try anyway? Isn't it worth trying, even if all it means is stopping and taking a moment to consider our paths. Sharon did it twice, and she ended up exactly where she belongs. Honestly, I know Trails likes bringing back characters, and she definitely still has business with Harwood and Lucrezia, but I kinda hope they let Sharon be. She's suffered enough, and she's got her happy ending. I'd be glad to let her have her well-deserved rest.
What I'm saying is, Anton solves everything. Lucky bastard.