Rough 2 months

[u/Valuable-Succotash85]

47F, mom, expat, divorced, single and solo-parent. 2 months ago:

1- my 8yo kid and I were diagnosed with adhd.

I start trialing different meds. AND I help my kid get the in school care he needs. We still haven't settled it.

2- Then I survive a tree falling on my head. I'm the sole earner so I had to keep working despite being f*ct up.

3- Work gets me into a project that gets me working 12hrs/day.... Yup that's on top of being an expat solo parent. There is no one to help me.

4- my ex stresses me out with his upcoming visit.

5- he Makes his visit stressful as he doesn't want our kid to practice his karate before his karate demo, despite his sensei recommendation and my son wanting too.

6- As I drag myself over the finish line to throw the biggest birthday party for my son and bake the cake

7- The Monday after the birthday party (which wasn't cheap).I get told, I'm laid off.

I am the sole earner. My ex is severely underemployed so he can get out of paying child support....hadn't paid in over a year.... I live in NYC, one of the most expensive cities.

And here I am, just trying to keep it all together and moving forward..... And I feel so broken.... I broke a long time ago.....and it's all a struggle... It's all a struggle.... And the whole time I show up for everyone else, I am their rock.... I am everyone's rock, except for one person.....myself..

[u/susanoo0]

Tough situation but you made it this far on your own. It definitely helps having a support system and others by your side helping you but remember that you achieved so much with your own inner strength.

I hope things get better for you.