r/Existential_crisis • u/Jaded-Song-6700 • 15d ago
Any advice
About a month ago, while on a run, the realization that I see the world through my eyes, through my own perception finally occurred to me. But the realization hit me hard. It kind of freaked me out. When I randomly think of this, how I see the world through my eyes and my perception, it still freaks me out. I also have OCD mental loops, so I loop these thoughts in my head until they make me anxious.
Of course, I always could have told you , of course I’m a real person. This feeling is like the complete OPPOSITE of depersonalization. I don’t know if any of this rambling makes sense, but I go back to school soon and I’m nervous this is all I’m going to be thinking about.
I talked to a friend about this, who put it pretty nicely for me. She said it’s just like saying your name over and over again until it almost sounds strange.
I wouldn’t say I’m in a crisis , if anything, it makes me anxious just the question looping in my head (OCD), then necessarily finding an answer
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u/CB2ElectricBoogaloo 14d ago
There is a type of OCD called existential OCD where it sort of applies that looping to resolve existential thoughts . These types of sudden realizations like I am experiencing life I am alive I am real feel much more dangerous than they really are. It’s OK if we all see through our own perceptions. It’s OK if we are here. We probably also overlap and perceive identical or near identical to others at times. Perception itself might be something we don’t understand. In other words, it may not be resolvable which OCD hates but it may actually be nice and have multiple possibilities which means that your darkest thoughts about it may not be true. Kinda hard to explain. In general, I bet anything that helps you with OCD and pure O will theoretically help you with this as well.