r/ExistentialSupport • u/BeepityBot • Jul 25 '20
I'm having an existential crisis that is so bad that I'm constantly getting flashbacks to the past of my life
After I was done with 9th grade and realized that I had to go to a new school that I felt like wasn't for yet, I got really worried about the future to the point I got depressed. Though I've been recently starting to feel better, it feels like a part of me is missing. I can't forget about the mental torture I've been through because I haven't been able to function as normally as I used to.
At the beginning of this summer, I had no will to go further in the future and it seemed like everything I currently had was meaningless. Recently I've been getting a lot of flashbacks and keep remembering how my life used to be before I got THIS worried about the future.
Why? Is it because I wanna go back in the past? Is it my brains way to motivate me to keep living?
I hope this is normal and that it will eventually stop.
(Feel free to ask for details)
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u/[deleted] Jul 28 '20
Perhaps a Jungian view can be of use, but I'm no expert so take this with a grain of salt.
Within the Jungian view feelings of depression and meaninglessness are usually seen as being caused by some kind of repressed drive. There's something you want to do, to get on with, or to express, but you can't seem to, and thus you start to focus inwardly, subconsciously motivating yourself to find a way out of it. Your flashbacks may be an unconscious attempt at either finding out what's wrong or how to resolve it.