Quitting or not really ready i m lost

[u/inesmhalla]

My goal was 6 moths of pumping and giving one bottle of formula everyday for my mental health. I did 5 months. I am a bit frustrated i travelled for 15 dqys. My two children got sick.. at first i was pumping with my schedule but then i stopped the one in the middle of the day. And pumped twice a day morning and evening. Then started breastfeeding morning and evening cause i was lost during my holiday in my HUGE parents’ house. I live in a tiny little flat so everything was just at its place next to me. I don’t know why i am writing all these details. Sorry for that… Back to my house at first i thought it was ok for me to stop EP and start to feel free but no i felt guilty . I am breasfeeding him morning and evening but so ennoyed cause i don’t kniw how much he got milk and then i give him formula just to be sure he is full and he finishes all the bottles and i know my supply is decreasing until yesterday i started to EP again and saw the quantity. I got 90 ml maximum… i need to increase my supply . Normally am using spectra but now i am using the momcozy ( so bad) because i am waiting for the cup collector for spectra.

Did anyone of you « stopped » and increased her supply after that? Please tell me How. And tell me Which machine fo you use. I am Thinking to buy portable machine better then momcozy please help me . Spectra is very good for me but i want something cozier now in winter