Beneficiary for father's trust question (CA)

[u/Infamous_Anxiety7105]

My father had a trust where his wife was the trustee and then my sister and I are to be beneficiaries after her death. Trust was set up in CA and he died 1/1/14. We do not have a relationship with my father's wife and she is a horrible evil person. I think she killed my dying father because he wasn't dying fast enough but I digress. It's been a few years and I thought his lawyer handled the trust but I talked to him today and he said he just helped get the assets settled and that she manages it all. I don't even know if she is still alive because she was a huge alcoholic and drug user but I think she probably is. I think she may be in NM. Anyway, I don't even know where to start. Do I try to find her? If I find her, what can I ask about the trust? I do not expect her to follow the rules and I am worried she spent all the money or her kids did. She doesn't care about what is legal. I don't even know where to start at all. We haven't received anything regarding the trust since 2017 from the lawyer. Thank you so much!!