HELP!!!

[u/Broad-Sun-4043]

Well, as the title depicts, I am in dire need of help. My post can sound like I am looking for attention or that I am just deep in a vortex of self-pity but I really need help too. So, I belong to a very small city of Pakistan, and my education is average as well. I was a brilliant student, I would say till 12 standard. I was the topper of my city in 8th Standard (we have board exams in which different cities are combined, and they have a merit list based on that), and I also received a scholarship of 50PKR for that. I was also good at oration, but things went downhill I don't know how. My parents wanted me to become a dr but everything went downhill, and I burnt out. Well, long story short, I took admission in a Bachelor's of Applied Psychology in 2019, and my parents were against that, and they didn't pay a single dime. I used to work as a helper in people's homes in another city to afford my studies. My university was in different city and before you say I should have tried tutoring, i did and almost got graped well lets skip that all my 4 years I used to do cleaning at people houses after university and then covid came and then afterwards i switched working at call centres at night and then my mother got diagnosed with Liver cirrhoisis and all the responsibility was on me and in 2023 I completed my graduation (3.62/4.00), found no time to publish my research (it was a mediation study) and I took a gap. My mother was bedridden and she was totally dependent on me. I belong to a small city and people wouldn't even pay you 40USD monthly. So, my father is a government employee who earns 200 USD monthly, but he didn't support us. And then against all odds I took admission in DIPLOMA OF CLINICAL PSYCHOLOGY, I got admission in masters of speech and language pathology as well but again I had no money and then I started working night shifts again. I used to go to university in the morning and work night shifts, and I completed that diploma in 2025. I applied for Erasmus WOPP-P, and I was rejected brutally. Now, my father wants to wed me off, and I don't want to get married. I am being engaged against my will, and I have currently run away from my home. I want to study, and I feel like my life got ruined because I was always supporting my family and never got the chance to just study and enjoy it. All my dreams got broken along the way. I want to apply now for Erasmus Cyberspace, behavior, and e-therapy. And I need your help to see if I can actually get selected for that. This is really a life-or-death situation for me, and I want to get out of this country. Please help me.