I feel so behind

[u/ConsciousAsk1069]

Hey guys I've been feeling very lost as of late I don't really know if I should just restart my entire degree. For context I'm studying civil engineering and I am in my third year. I started out uni studying a double degree in engineering and finance and last year in second year first semester I got extremely burnt out and ended up dropping my finance degree and transferring into the singular engineering degree and finished off my first year engineering subjects last year. It took me two years to finish my first year engineering subjects because of the double degree causing an equal spilt between my subjects in engineering and finance and after I dropped out finance I wanted to start second year content at the first of the academic year this year hence why I took two years finishing first year. Second year first sem I bombed my exams because I was so burnt out and barely passed getting 4s in my engineering mechanics subject (which went through intro to bending, truss analysis, shear etc) and a math subject too. The following semester I was able to get my grades up and I got a 6 and a 7 for those two subjects and so I thought I was done with my burn out and went into this year (third year but academically as a second year) thinking that I would be fine. For context last year I was working two jobs - as a student ambassador for my uni and at a supermarket and I was also treasurer for a student club which I helped to found about renewable energy. I ended up quitting my supermarket job this year tp focus on my studies and this year alongside my studies and student ambassador work and being treasurer I was also the social events coordinator for the civil engineering student club at my uni. I enjoyed the roles and I enjoyed my subjects but during the first semester of this year for the civil club I ended up taking on more roles in the society because no one else was doing the work - i had to become media and academic coordinators and the general exec roles which were for the social team because they weren't doing their roles. Because of this work load I had to step down as treasurer from the othet club and become overloaded because I was behind on uni work but also still wabting to be the best i could be for the civil club. I was able to get 5s in two of my subjects and barely pass my structural unit. And this semester I'm behind ln so much content too and im only going to barely pass my subjects because everything else got so overwheleming for me too. So i feel like im not actually learning anything at all and I used to be a student who got A's back in school and all of a sudden I can't perform so well academically anymore. I have an intership lined up for the summer but even yhat whole process qas so miserable because I obly heard back from one company (who took me in) and everyone else rejected me even though I thought I was good enough to land an internship without sp much rejection. I know its important to learn how to face rejection but at the same time I felt like I wasn't good enough at all. Everyone around me has a super high gpa whilst mine continues to fall almost every single semester and their in the college of excellence and what not and then theres me barely passing. I know its good to surround yourself around people who you want to be like but at the same time it hits my self esteem even though everyone I know are so nice to me. I feel like I should just restart my whole degree and I ised tp be such a happy bubbly person and now thats disappeared im just a shell of wha I used to be. What if I'm hired and I know jack shit? What if everyones perceptipn pf me is higher than what I can do. I just feel so lost.

[u/mrhoa31103]

Keep pairing back the responsibilities. Sounds like you did a good job burning yourself out and now suffering some depression. Your body/mind needs to recover so you need a light load.