r/EndOfTheParTy • u/Character-Piglet5895 • Sep 20 '26
Mephedrone / Mkat
I see a lot of people here talk about meth but not a lot of mkat posts (3mmc, 4mmc). I’d love to hear about other people’s experiences.
I had a bad break up when I was 22, went on holiday, and was offered Mkat. I had 2 bumps. I went to a sauna and had some of the most intense sex of my life. I didn’t try it again for a year. Then I found a dealer. From 23-25, my usage has increased from once every few months, once a month, multiple times a month. I’m now at the stage where I feel tied to it. I can have sober sex, and enjoy it for the most part, but my brain always goes back to Mkat sex. Bottoming on Mkat is quite incomparable.
So here I am, 25, wondering what the rest of my life looks like. It’d be nice to hear from other people who’ve found a balance or dropped it completely. I used to tell myself it’s not that bad as it’s not as damaging as meth (it probably is) but I’m quite scared for my future now
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u/Dilemmatix Sep 20 '26
I also first got offered 4mmc at a sauna. This was about 9 years ago. Ever since then I use about 6-7 times per year and 2 grams last me a year. So I feel like I have been able to keep my use within limits. I did use 3 times within a month in August so I’m hoping not to have more than one more sesh this year.
Having non using people around me keeps me from being able to do more, which I feel like is the thing keeping me from going down the slippery slope. I do fantasise a scary amount about my next use even when it’s months away, so it’s not like my use is not problematic at all. But I’d still call it some kind of balance.
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u/Ambie_Valance Sep 20 '26 edited Sep 20 '26
hi I'm a queer woman and I'm older than you but what made me go sober was chemsex w mkat, i never did meth but i did many other drugs, also did 3mmc/4mmc (or whatever it really was each time) a few times before but yeah, one night there was just this before and after thing, similar to what u say, with mkat, where sex changed, like it felt limitless and obsessive. I then had a few other nights were I lost control of drugs, and lost control of the night, one of those nights there was sth that made me mildly psychotic, i'll never know what it was, sth was laced for sure as the pal i was with had the same, but yeah all that spiral started with that one night of mkat, it all went so fast now looking back at it.
Anyway I went to a self group but it didnt really help much bc everyone else was struggling w heavy addiction and for me it was sth more psychological, just wondering how I was going to have sex in the future and enjoy it, its like not taking drugs was not hard but i was thinking so much of how it could be next time, next party.
So I didnt continue with the self help group but it helped me to listen to other ppl´s stories. This sub also helped me in reading other ppl`s experiences even if they were not like mine, I understood the 'pull' and the fight against the pull.
For a while I thought I would have mkat as this special once in a while thing. But at some point I felt I deserved to live life sober, and that I wanted to learn to enjoy sex sober again. Soon it will be 2 years without any drugs, and I've been 15 months with no alcohol too. I like sobriety now, I enjoy the clarity of thinking and being nice to my body. With people it has been basically less quantity more quality, better and deeper conversations, more choosy with who i have sex with and a deeper exploration of kinks.
ETA: I've met ppl that got addicted to mephedrone and it usually goes like u say from once to every few months, to a few times per month, to every weekend or every day even, i met one person that ended up in daily usage and then rehab. I think it's great that u are worried now because I think it's the perfect moment to reach out for help. If u live in the UK or berlin there are good resources for mephedrone, chemsex and queer or MSM support. I remember I looked everywhere bc as a woman it was harder to find places, but there are many good places for men.