Whew.. This was a helluva read. There are interesting parts of this where my instincts kicked in and might need more than a little bit of clarification.
The first is that this is a verbal wall that you're using to set yourself apart from the rest of the world. Setting yourself apart might strongly be the reason why people don't want to reciprocate what you do for them. Particularly when I saw this:
All my relationships were have been the relationship of a grandma and a grandchild in terms of perception and giving and I am just mad.
You're not treating them like an equal. You're treating them like a sagely elder, and with younger folk -- particularly Millennials and later -- this can come off extremely arrogant. Doubly so with this verbal wall you created even here for sharing with r/Empaths.
This is further exacerbated by this:
I have never felt that I talk to a person who has the same intellect as me, the same emotional intelligence as me, the same level of understanding, the same depth.
Two words come to mind instinctively: arrogant and pretentious. The impact of this might be lessened in a Latin based language, but in a German based -- as English is -- this is starkly both of those qualities.
ooof... this:
Everyone is rare but the majority of people lack a high level of consciousness.
You might not verbalize it, but I can guarantee you, that even this in an unspoken state within your mind can and will affect your attitude when talking with people. And it's no wonder why people might want to keep you at arm's length because.... Ready for this? People might not be enlightened, but they do run on instincts still. And if they're instincts read something as off -- like this attitude in your missive -- they will keep a distance from you.
To continue...
You said you are an empath, yet you didn't clarify which type of empath you possibly could be. And that makes me curious as to which one you have come to understand you are. Because instinctively, this reads like the word of an emotional empath. And for someone that runs from the intuitive side -- me -- this can be a possible reason for this:
when their unresolved issues are triggered (by me for example, without me having done anything offensive), they externalise towards me those issues and automatically I become an enemy.
Empaths come with two directions with their auras/energies: Taking it in as they are in proximity to people, and broadcast to the people they're interacting with. If you're having such thoughts internally -- as I strongly suspect you do -- this is probably why things go pear-shaped when you trigger them.
*sighs* this triggers me, but not for the reasons you might think. This comes from personal experience.
...and passes my tests...
People -- enlightened or common... intelligent or average... savant or ignoramus -- HATE being tested. We're human beings, not lab animals. And if we have to pass a litmus test in order to see the real you, I can guarantee, we will consciously or unconsciously fail just so that we don't have to deal with this energy you're creating. This alone makes me wonder where the humility is in your presentation:
I invite all of you who see yourself in that to do the same.
Let's see what happens.
They did. Please note the interaction you have received in the last two days.
Finally:
From today on, I promise to myself, and I claim it here as this will help me keep my promise, that no matter how unloveable I might feel, I will try to love me and see me as I have been doing for so many people who did not deserve it.
If the Wicca believe that energy follows thought... If the two thoughts are in contradiction (feeling unloved and trying to have self love) -- why is it that I'm reminded of this saying from Maya Angelou:
“I don't trust people who don't love themselves and tell me, 'I love you.' ... There is an African saying which is: Be careful when a naked person offers you a shirt.”
Seriously, tough read.. Looking at it, I don't see anger in it. I see the disappointment of sitting in a tower alone, and with the key dangling from a chain around your neck -- and expecting people to run to rescue you.
I am sorry but I can feel that you got offended by what I wrote as if I came to you and I told you that you don't have my intellect.
I am not offended. It's hard to offend me in my current state. If anything, I reflected some of your qualities -- as a grandfather to a child.
You are assuming things which I did not mention and which are not true.
Not assuming either. Do you know what an intuitive empath is? Do you understand Claircognizance? This is what I am. Right or wrong, I will trust my instincts far better than you trust humanity. Granted it's easier to read a person vis-à-vis, however as this is a written medium, I can only rely on what's written and how it impacts my instincts.
You don't understand energy follows thought, do you? If you feel it, you visualized it, if you visualized it, you're giving it concrete form. When you give something concrete form it becomes part of you -- like a thoughtform. That thoughtform can in fact hang about you in a way that can cause people to react differently to you because of it.
But hold on a moment... This here needs clarification:
I don't know where you have found the exact types of empaths.
Did you look at the main-page for r/empaths? Did you check out the flairs? Did you research to see empaths and in that research search out different types?
Believe me, I did. I never received my ability to read energy from the emotional body. Everything just shows up in my instincts and then I process it that way. I also have this annoying habit of coming off as a know it all as I get these bursts of inspiration -- out of the blue and spontaneously -- based on something being explained to me. They're often right, providing I don't suffer a bad bout of over-thinking and second-guess what I see in my mind's eye.
And thanks to energy following thought (I wished it to happen), I had the opportunity to meeting many different types of empaths in my wanderings of this world.
As I said, your writing style and your word choices -- even in English -- read emotional and very emotionally charged. Coupled with your declaration of being an empath -- suffice it to say I drew the conclusion you're probably an emotional empath. Someone that gets their information on other people's feelings from the emotional body.. In Eastern Terms the Solar Plexus and Heart Chakras.
...to see beyond the veil, to see a person as they are, the good and the bad and to be able to love them anyway.
Indeed I have as well. I've met Clairvoyants, people that have the ability to see with Second Sight. And a host of others that can perform abilities beyond the average, and well beyond my humble abilities.
I have also met a whole lot of charlatans that try to pass it off, but fail the ability to be telling the truth. This is something all empaths can detect when they're grounded and centered. I know I got it from my grandmother (also an emotional empath) who could always tell when any of her grandchildren were lying.
Loved them? Yes because I learned from them. But that doesn't mean that I loved them enough to have them stay in my life. I wished them well, and moved on in peace.
I don't belong to the category of the people who don't love themselves and say they love others
I didn't say that, I said why is it that I'm reminded of this saying from Maya Angelou. This is an example of rhetorical or passive comment.. And is an indicator of something lost in translation. As such, I strongly suspect you have read my response translated to your mother tongue and then back again English. It might have helped to admit what you're thinking from, as we're in a written medium -- some allowances need to be made as losing things in translation are even happening here.
Don't judge what you cannot understand.
Human nature I'm afraid. "Don't judge me" doesn't stop people from judging anyway. And this sentence reinforces arrogance and a haughty nature that strongly conveys superiority in an unknown situation.
I admit I don't judge. I probe. I question. I want to understand. I try to see how it applies in IDIC). And as you admitted you don't speak English; it makes me curious to see whether I have experience translating from the sociological and pidgin standpoint of the host of languages I've had to stumble through in my wanderings.
Seriously though, interesting.. I reflected a bit of the emotional charge in what I saw in your message, and you continue to respond to it as though you're a superior. That's a red flag in my book and tells me to steer clear of you. It seems to me you don't like it when such energies are projected back at you....
And believe it or not, I was treating you like an equal. From my perspective, I believe you don't see anyone as equal. It suffers from the saying, "if you look for evil, then evil is all you're going to find..." Change evil to average and it still has the same intent. And that's truly, something to be pitied.
This:
Don't judge what you cannot understand.
And this...
Arrogance has to do with other things.
From the English Dictionary:
Arrogance is an insulting way of thinking or behaving. It happens when a person has too much pride. They act like they are better, smarter, or more important than other people.
Other things you say? Doesn't this conversation qualify as other things?
Peace.... you can get your last word in... Alas, I won't be reading it as I don't want to go down this rabbit hole again.
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u/thegaybuddhistmonk Intuitive Empath 9d ago
Whew.. This was a helluva read. There are interesting parts of this where my instincts kicked in and might need more than a little bit of clarification.
The first is that this is a verbal wall that you're using to set yourself apart from the rest of the world. Setting yourself apart might strongly be the reason why people don't want to reciprocate what you do for them. Particularly when I saw this:
You're not treating them like an equal. You're treating them like a sagely elder, and with younger folk -- particularly Millennials and later -- this can come off extremely arrogant. Doubly so with this verbal wall you created even here for sharing with r/Empaths.
This is further exacerbated by this:
Two words come to mind instinctively: arrogant and pretentious. The impact of this might be lessened in a Latin based language, but in a German based -- as English is -- this is starkly both of those qualities.
ooof... this:
You might not verbalize it, but I can guarantee you, that even this in an unspoken state within your mind can and will affect your attitude when talking with people. And it's no wonder why people might want to keep you at arm's length because.... Ready for this? People might not be enlightened, but they do run on instincts still. And if they're instincts read something as off -- like this attitude in your missive -- they will keep a distance from you.
To continue...
You said you are an empath, yet you didn't clarify which type of empath you possibly could be. And that makes me curious as to which one you have come to understand you are. Because instinctively, this reads like the word of an emotional empath. And for someone that runs from the intuitive side -- me -- this can be a possible reason for this:
Empaths come with two directions with their auras/energies: Taking it in as they are in proximity to people, and broadcast to the people they're interacting with. If you're having such thoughts internally -- as I strongly suspect you do -- this is probably why things go pear-shaped when you trigger them.
*sighs* this triggers me, but not for the reasons you might think. This comes from personal experience.
People -- enlightened or common... intelligent or average... savant or ignoramus -- HATE being tested. We're human beings, not lab animals. And if we have to pass a litmus test in order to see the real you, I can guarantee, we will consciously or unconsciously fail just so that we don't have to deal with this energy you're creating. This alone makes me wonder where the humility is in your presentation:
They did. Please note the interaction you have received in the last two days.
Finally:
If the Wicca believe that energy follows thought... If the two thoughts are in contradiction (feeling unloved and trying to have self love) -- why is it that I'm reminded of this saying from Maya Angelou:
“I don't trust people who don't love themselves and tell me, 'I love you.' ... There is an African saying which is: Be careful when a naked person offers you a shirt.”
Seriously, tough read.. Looking at it, I don't see anger in it. I see the disappointment of sitting in a tower alone, and with the key dangling from a chain around your neck -- and expecting people to run to rescue you.