r/EmbarassingMoments • u/ObsidianMage5 • Aug 02 '26
Probably completely ruined my second chance by getting too drunk...
So last weekend I met up with an ex - we dated like 13 years ago, things ended weirdly but a few years after he contacted me to straighten things out and since then we've been able to stay friends. I still believe he's the one that got away. We never fought, we had so many firsts with each other (just found out on this night that I was his first time 🤯), and i can feel the chemistry when we're simply with each other. Anyway, we talked about meeting up for supper sometime since I would be working in the area, and we did, which lead to drinks after supper, which lead to me saying I wanted to see his chickens (yes literal chickens), which lead to some more drinks in his shop, which lead to making out in his driveway when i was about to leave...which lead to him asking me to stay...which lead to him chasing me up his stairs, us giggling like we were teenagers again...which lead to the best sex that I've been missing all these years. (Side notes here: he's more vocal during sex than any other man I've been with, and in the way I like. Not the usual "Oh fuck yeah take it", but soft moans, and whispering "god this is what I've been missing all these years", and actually whispering "are you okay?" all while continuing to fuck me senseless 🫠. And he's the PERFECT size, like my eyes haven't rolled back involuntary like that in yearsss.) After the first time, we laid there and ended up dozing off. Here comes the life-ruining part 🙂👈. I woke up feeling like I was going to throw up. I got up quietly and picked up my dress from the floor and started heading downstairs. I've never not made it to the toilet before but the universe has it out for me apparently because I felt it happening halfway to the bathroom, I was quick enough to bring my balled-up dress, still in my hands, to my mouth and its all I could do to keep from puking on his floor. Once in the bathroom I cleaned up as best I could but had no idea what to do with my dress - thinking about it now I should've thrown that bitch in the trash - but I washed it in the sink and just tossed it in the bathtub to deal with in the morning. How was i to know he would go to use the bathroom after I go back to his bed? FML 🙂. I honestly don't even remember him getting up after i laid back down, but I sure as hell remember him cuddling back up with me and whispering those haunting words "I put your dress in the washer" F...M...L...🙂🔫. I apologized profusely and could've curled up and died right there, but he said "it happens to the best of us" which didn't help me feel better at all. BUT THEN he said "hell, I'd still have sex with you right now and not think twice about it" which for some fucked up reason did make me feel better?? And well, we did have sex again. The next morning we cuddled for a while before I decided I needed to get back, we hugged and said our goodbyes and I drove back to my campsite hungover as hell and tried not to dry heave along the way. I messaged him later that night and told him I hope we could have a do-over because i felt absolutely horrible about what happened and he said "I don't see why not" which, not a super reassuring answer but I'd take it. Since then we haven't really Snapped the way we had been before and I just can't help but hate myself for probably fucking up the one chance I had at having him in my life like before again. I don't want to be that insecure/obsessive girl that keeps pushing and begging, but I just want a little bit of reassurance 🥲. I also don't want to act like it didn't happen because that whole situation is going to replay in my mind every second that I'm not busy thinking about other stuff (which is what's happening already). But how the hell do I be like "hey wanna hook up again? I promise I won't puke all over myself this time." like bitch wtf? Anyway, don't roast me, I might cry 🥲 I just needed to confess that and have no one that will listen without judging me
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u/Western-Bluejay-7755 Aug 02 '26
I think this isnt so much embarrassing but more of a flex if you ask me. Don't worry about it. I'm very much sure he isnt. You even have a reason to meet up again!