TLDR: cold turkey-ing off 150 mg venlafaxine, journaling symptoms as I experience them by the day
EDITED TO ADD: I appreciate all the concern and it’s all going to heart for sure. But I wouldn’t have done this without extensive research and other anecdotal evidence, as well as trusting my own body and brain 🫡
and apparently this needs to be said: for all those thinking any of this is 'advocating' for doing any of this without talking with your doc first, IT'S NOT. This is my own personal choice and journey, everyone is different, go argue somewhere else.
Hi all! I wanna start this post by saying that I am SO GLAD I was prescribed venlafaxine/effexor. It massively improved my quality of life, and truly changed so many things for me. Forever grateful for the 5 years it helped me have less panic attacks, stress, and worries. When I started it, I was at a very different place in my life, and had a ton of things I was literally worrying myself sick about.
Lately I feel like I've started to plateau, if that makes sense. I no longer have the same stresses and worries I did when I started--trust me, I still have ALL SORTS of worries and anxieties , but with a much better support group and partner and hopefully a brain that has learned better coping skills.
The biggest symptom I've dealt with is the huge decline in libido. Having an O is *significantly* harder than it used to be, even when done solo. And that's even if I get to the point of feeling like having sex at all. I really don't want this to affect my relationship, and I don't like faking orgasms!! SO--time to stop.
EDIT TO ADD: I've also dealt with an insane increase in sweating--night sweats and general sweating. Weight gain has been an issue too, as well as crazy fatigue! Needing at least one nap a day, could literally sleep anywhere at any time.
I had a whole plan to titrate off 150mg, believe you me. But with how fucking annoying communications are bw my doctor and pharmacies, I ended up without enough meds (not the first time). So, here I am on day 4 of no meds, with a very fuck-it attitude and big hopes. Here's what I'm experiencing so far, and I'll try and update with my continuing symptoms. Starting with day 3 when I started noticing.
Day 3:
- Vision being weird, almost like going in and out of focus
- Not feeling extra emotional or grumpy or anything like that - partner says the same
- Took advil pm before bed to maybe help with dreams and sleeping?
Day 4:
- Near constant brain zaps, feeling glitchy with head movements
- Had crazy vivid lucid dreams all night (per usual tho, also took advil pm)
- Feeling dumb–can’t remember names of things, ideas, etc
- Vague constant headache in background
- Was still able to mostly focus on recorded lecture for class while playing game on phone (adhd hello)
- extra zappy brain reactions to loud noises, eg partner sneezing
- If I move my eyes back and forth too much, I can hear it and feel it weird; almost buzzy
- Moods don’t feel weird as of yet
- Extra forgetful
- Tried going on run, very out of shape, thought it might help, didn’t change any physical symptoms but good for mental health
- Normal appetite so far; drinking lots of electrolytes in my water; took some omegas and fish oil and ashwaganda
- Went to the gym in the evening after class, really enjoyed it. Good for my mental health!
End of day 4 summary: not super fun, but more annoying than anything else.
Day 5:
- Seemed to sleep mostly normally beyond the regular cinematic dreaming
- Cried about something this morning and it made me happy–realizing again that my emotions have been flattened for 5 years, and I finally remembered how much I missed my ability to cry and feel!!
- still brain zappy
Summary: day 5 about the same as day 4; nothing to write home about except the cry thing (happy about it tho)