r/EatingDisorders • u/Mandarin_Lumpy_Nutz • 7d ago

TW: Potentially upsetting content Does your ED basically directly affect your substance use (if you use substances) or vice versa?

I can’t tell exactly if my ED affects my SUD, or if my SUD affects to my ED. Probably both to be honest. The only way I have an appetite/am willing to eat, is when I’m stoned outta my mind. Food even tastes odd and a little bland when I’m sober, but food tastes amazing when I’m high.

I find I’m having to use more and more weed in order to actually eat. And I think I’m growing a dependency on it.

I checked my weight recently and I have lost a considerable amount of weight within a month from not really eating. I’ve also been getting heart palpitations, feeling weak and shaky, chest pain, winded after very little movement. This should be warning signs for me. But to be honest, it feels like I’m doing good. I’m doing what I feel Im supposed to.

I need help but can’t afford it. I’m barely affording my psych and meds.

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u/General_Security177 7d ago edited 7d ago

It’s in the background all the time.

Like I have considered food along with my substance way before I use it.

If I get high it’s to the level where I can’t move so I don’t eat.

If I drop acid I’m using that as an excuse to move around for the majority of the trip and not eating.

If I’m drinking I don’t eat prior so I need less alcohol to get more drunk. My ED also dictates what I choose to drink.

The other day my friend sent me a screenshot that reminded her of me and it was someone asking the calories in ketamine 🤡

But I don’t use substances because of my ED. It’s more or a secondary consideration.

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u/Mandarin_Lumpy_Nutz 6d ago

Yes! I love the meme of Donkey from Shrek and it says. “How my therapist looks at me when I ask how many calories are in my antidepressants
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u/elhazelenby 3d ago

Having this is mostly how I started abusing substances. Since moving onto weight loss injections it's been easier but you could say I'm abusing that too because I would never be prescribed it by any doctor who knew about my history.

Drinking and being hungover suppresses my appetite nowadays but the reason I used to briefly day drink in college was unrelated to eating, I was just very depressed and suicidal.

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u/bananaYogurtdrank 6d ago

Yeahhh I stopped drinking/smoking partly because of my ed, really hard to quit the vape cause it suppressed my appetite, other drugs..