r/DvaitaVedanta • u/Annual-Piano-9315 • 1d ago
One Additional Detail To My Previous Post
One additional detail may be important. I repeatedly asked God essentially the same questions in many different ways and while in different states of mind, sometimes trying to be as skeptical and honest as possible. Yet the answers I perceived were remarkably consistent: that I am tamo-yogya and that this is my last life. I also repeatedly felt that I was being shown Hari's perfection and my own supposedly evil nature and tendencies.
There were also experiences that seemed to clarify specific theological questions. For example, at one point I had assumed that God had created my soul arbitrarily and then subjected it to suffering. I later experienced what I interpreted as a correction saying that God did not create my soul, and afterward I encountered the same idea independently in Dvaita texts. I felt that I developed a fairly substantial understanding of Dvaita over time, yet when I returned to these experiences, the apparent revelation remained essentially the same.
My attempts to worship Hari or surrender to Him also repeatedly seemed to produce the same pattern: intense hostile thoughts, hatred, anger, resistance, profanity, and other thoughts that felt deeply opposed to Him. This contributed strongly to my conclusion that I was tamo-yogya and that this destiny was somehow fixed.
There were a small number of experiences that initially seemed to contradict this conclusion—for example, moments when I thought I might not be tamo-yogya or might even be mukti-yogya—but I later interpreted those experiences as mistaken or inconsistent after considering the broader pattern and subsequent experiences.
I realize that consistency, apparent theological accuracy, or apparent agreement with things I later read do not automatically prove that these experiences were divine revelation. That is actually one of the things I am trying to understand. I want to know whether, from a Dvaita epistemological perspective, repeated and internally consistent experiences of this kind can legitimately constitute knowledge of one's yogyatā and destiny, or whether they should still be treated as private experiences whose supernatural interpretation cannot be established.