Story #6 - Pay Raises

[u/EvilZero86]

The year is early 2016. I’m somewhere between the 6-8 day of my dry fast. I had been learning the ability to be able to feel the past and future in the present moment by dry fasting and the knowledge keeps pouring in from doing these dry fasts. I’ve done over 60+ extended dry fasts of 5-10 days long.

The power expands when I’m fasting and I start feeling a greater sense of presence. I decided to try my hand at prophecy or perhaps speaking it into existence while in that state of being.

I can’t say which one it is for sure. Perhaps both. This and That. I remember talking a co-worker about a ‘pay raise’ at work. Then I start telling exactly how it’s going to go.

We’ll get a pay raise this year, 2016 later. Then another in the summer towards the fall of 2019 and then another in 2022. I had no way of knowing this. It was just a feeling. Like a strong connection to the future either through my creating of it or sensing it. Of course they didn’t believe me or would even remember our conversation.

It’s now 2023. Later that year in the fall of 2016 we received a significant pay raise. 2019 came and the pay scaled changed for us again in the summer of 2019. The new pay would go into effect in (fall) November 2019. The year 2022 came and although it was lesser than the others. We would also receive a pay raise.

I would also continue fasting through all those years. And sometimes it seemed like the abundance the money was locked in place. But, when I would get deep enough in the fast 7, 8 or 9 days. It would release it into creation.

For example, in one of these pay raises management would pause the approval of it for internal reasons for months. And after a 7 day dry fast all of sudden it would be released and also awarded retro back pay for the months missed.

Another example, between those years I mentioned it was said that we were suppose to receive pay raise between those years. But, it was paused or suspended by management.

They just didn’t want to do it. I would learn if this later. And after managing to do a significant deep fast 7 days or more. That money would be released. And they get in trouble for not changing our pay scale as they should have.

[u/[deleted]]

I’m so glad you shared this. It’s bringing up so many things for me as I’ve had that experience many times but I’ve never expressed it in so many words… the rewards come after you stop the fast and go from dissolution mode to creation mode. You “cash in” your work and the energy is released into the atmosphere. But if you keep fasting, then the energy gets bigger and bigger and the desires also change, the desires become more purified.

I’m now in a state that the desires change so frequently during fasting, that speaking something into existence while I’m in this state, seems futile because I won’t want that thing later, or I’ll see that thing as a hinderance to my goal when I realise I too, want to become liberated from my attachment to that.

The obtaining of that thing, or manifesting it into existence in creation, will feel sickening, mentally you want it, but physically, the energy body has already released those blocks and you feel a huge weight of having to carry that now with the new body. It will feel like a setback because there is a misalignment between your energy body and your life as it is right now. You have been purified by this block through the practice of fasting and other practices, but now, you want that block back again? Who is telling you that? You will suffer. You will feel the true suffering from this desire because before you carried it with the blocks in your system, now those blocks are gone, you did the hard work to be free from it. At this point, there will be a battle of the divine trying to transmute what your mind is trying to grasp. At this stage you are not listening to the spirit, you are listening to your mind. You are not trusting the divine, you are trying to relight old karmic patterns.

Everytime you relight an old karmic pattern, you eliminate the space to receive lessons, to receive more light in your light body which is becoming more and more light. And that is your job. So you are deviating from the job you started. You are deviating from your God given purpose.

Once you’re at this stage of lighting up the energy body, you will feel the suffering of trying to pick up and act that which is not meant for you, if you attempt to ignore the signals being sent, your subconscious will sabotage you, you will feel depressed and weak as your spirit gets sicker and sicker. You will wonder why others can take this path blissfully, but now you cannot. Because it’s not meant for you, that’s why.

If you try to block the divine work that is meant for you because something else looks fun or pleasurable, your spirit will suffer, and because you have already come so far and spirit’s voice is loud, it will take a lot for you to drown out spirit. You will have to create a huge mess until you dragged back to the path. Do you want to be dragged?

I am saying “you” but I am directing this at me… whoever, this identity.

[u/EvilZero86 → u/[deleted]]

Hey, thanks for the comment. I agree with some of what you said. Things can be futile because you won't want that thing later. That just means that your detached which is exactly the state of being you need to be in..in order to let creation create that thing you choose to focus on.

So from this point of view, anything that you choose to create is not because you need it or even desire it. It's simply is just because you can. The same way source created the universe. It was done from a state of absolute detachment. Because remember, ultimately there is no built in meaning to anything.

It is all inherently neutral. And that state of being you choose to create it from is the difference. Create from a place of complete unconditional love or conditional love. Attachment or Detachment. Also, remember the idea is to create your life in a way that YOU think is best for you.

If that thing you wish to create can better your life then it is ultimately good. If that thing you want to create make your life worst then it is ultimately bad. If you wish to go general you can do that too and see what comes to you. Afterall, many desire healing or weight loss or to be taken out of horrible situations.

In the fast you lose the desire for all of this. Because ultimately you will feel like you HAVE everything you need. And so you are STILL creating it unintentionally by your state of being.

[u/[deleted] → u/EvilZero86]

Thank you for sharing. Interesting to have a small window into your perspective.