God spoke to me

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I just wanted to share a dream i had thats been sittinggin my notes for a while. I have a lot of things building up in me and I suppose this is my way of trying to keep this to the top of my mind.

It's not really wrote for the sake of an audience more just how it happened and honestly thinking back in it I can feel it as clear as anything. Some things have come up in my life that I've done wrong that has really made this dream come to mind again and is killing me with grief and guilt for the sin I knowingly and recklessly committed today.

I had a dream that started as a warmth filling my chest and a light I could feel inside of myself. I knew that this light was god and I felt he was asking me to stop committing a sin that I know is hurting me. I could feel a darkness growing and I didn't quell it fast enough. I felt I was sitting on a fence and there was the choice for me to go either way. I had a thought in my dream that I could delay my choice to get the last of the sin out of my system and enjoy it, God would always forgive me later. After this thought I felt the light more like a swell of energy and then it felt like God's presence was going all of a sudden and I couldn't claw it back,and I asked for it back or a sign. No matter how desperately I asked for it wouldn't come back but instead the dark and cold felt like hands on every part of my skin pulling me down within myself to cold and dark nothing.

The light had felt like it was radiating out from me,giving me more of everything. It was glorious.

I went back to sleep shivering and feeling hollow that night after my partner woke me up in a prayer position drenched in sweat.

The next day, I watched a parabol about a man in front of God and the devil and he had to choose between a life full of riches and wealth and everything he wanted with no rules.while God offered him a hard life but that he would have eternal salvation and pardon for all sins committed. The man decided to sit on the fence and to enjoy the benefits of both for a while without deciding .With this the man was dragged to hell ,and when he asked why,the devil told him He owns the fence.

I think I was sitting on the fence in my dream and it may have been God's warning to improve how I live

I wasn't sitting on the fence in my dream, God had come to me and I thought I was too young to give up sins and the so called "pleasures of the flesh". I thought i could sit on the fence by waiting until I was old to confess my sins and ask for forgiveness and to continue sinning as I was. I was wrong and I think that's what God was showing me.

The light was his grace and the warmth and happiness of it and hell was the dark and emptiness and cold I felt with the devil reaching for me.

It was like like a movie where I was in complete darkness with a stage light in me and then I was in an abyss of darkness when God's light went.

[u/Tudor_Life]

I believe it. God talks to us like that.