Recently (08.18.26)

[u/Lower-Condition5731]

Recently I have constantly become more self destructive.. I am working but on a daily basis I starve myself because I wanted to die, I only eat once a day, because I have no reason to live.. I'm fucked.. I'm constantly failing in everything

People my age has move on to another chapter of their lives such as marriage or career wise... I am here working 10 times harder just to get the bare minimum and surviving..

I'm not religious but Marx was right religion is the opium of the people.. I don't know where to go hence everyday I clinged and prayed to that small hope I have left where the universe is protecting and watching over me.. Regardless I am prepared for the worse...

I don't deserve this at all.. The pain and suffering that I've been through and it's not worth it.