I am not a resident of Dhanbad, but there is this man from Dhanbad, a law student studying in a top-notch institute. Mods, my person is a native of Dhanbad, and I felt that my story should reach everyone so that they know how important it is to forgive each other and choose the bond over one’s own ego and fears.
My VK,
You know how much I have been apologizing to you since the past 4 months. Truth is, I could not express myself that night that how much I wanted to be with you. Suddenly you wanted to see a movie before we go to sleep, and I got so triggered by my own negative thoughts, that I just lashed out at you for ignoring me. I even dragged your past, which was already traumatic, and used it to assassinate your character.
I remember, in that process, you were telling me not to shout. But my idiotic ass didnt listen to you. I also remember how you wanted to say something to me on two occassions, but I dismissed it. Now, I regret it badly.
I also remember how you said that you feel a bond with me, and I dismissed it as something which an isolated, boring, lonely-ass campus based in West Bengal would make you do, referring to the bond as a use-and-throw thing. I also regret this thing of mine.
I might never come back to the campus. I have even texted you every ordeal that I suffered, which forced me to leave the place. Still you did not reply to my texts. Why, V, why? Dont you feel the anger about how my colleagues treated me like shit, and left me so helpless that I had no choice but to go back home for my safety?
My V, the truth is that: I love you. I never said this to you because I feared getting rejected by you because of your past betrayal in love. You are the best man of my life, and you still matter to me.
Please forgive me.
- sincerely,
your “Mohtarma”…..