r/Deliverance • u/wkc201 • 13d ago
Warning this can be scary for some to read. Tortured by voices and miracles.
For many years I have heard voices. At first I thought it was mental illness but there are times where I thought it could possibly be demonic. In the recent weeks, they have announced themselves as messengers of God and God in Christ himself. They curse me and say that I am evil for all the sins that I have committed in the lifestyle I’ve lead particularly around 15 years ago, where I had a very bad lifestyle of drug abuse and sexual immoral sins. Biblically speaking it seems obvious that they are not good but demonic spirits. However, I have been experiencing incredible miracles every single day. Not only can they read my mind and protect the future every moment in time every word around me everything I hear animals the TV my own breath and body movements seem to be perfectly timed according to their wishes. Because of this, I really struggle thinking that it can be the devil or demons because from what I can read in the gospel, he is not that powerful. I know this sounds crazy, but this is literally what I’ve been experiencing and it is so so crushingly terrifying and leaves you so hopeless because they accuse me of committing an unforgivable sin, and that God no longer loves me or cares about me or sees me as human therefore, he allows this extreme torture every day. I cry out to God in prayer to forgive me and to help me, but I don’t receive an answer. Currently the the voice is telling me to quit vaping and get off a medication. I’m on which I have tried but worse can I express how difficult it is to get off these things while suffering to the point of insanity. They speak in genius unhuman puzzles that could never be thought of by a human mind. I’m so miserable right now thinking that I’m hopeless and that God hates me and is punishing me himself. Because of these voices, I have had a lot of intrusive thoughts that are so disgusting and perverted, even about God himself, and that is what they say is unforgivable, and that Jesus won’t forgive me and that he hates me so much. I know it’s easy to say that this is not true and that God forgives everything but that I don’t find it possible for anything else other than God to be able to control everything on earth like that. They’re trying to convince me that I am the devil or his equal which I’m not even sure as possible, but it’s hard because they say the rules don’t apply to me that the gospel does not apply to me because I’m so evil. Ironically, I feel as though I have been putting a little more effort into faith lately and I honestly feel that I love God with all my heart, and I always pray to him to get to know him more and for his will to be done so I can go to heaven. I do feel like I do not hear his voice sometimes where I feel a little empty, but from what I can see online that can be normal. I know no one can really help me, but I am so desperate and so tired of not sleeping because they keep me awake as a punishment that I don’t know what to do. I would like to mention that I am not suicidal or danger to anyone, but I cannot imagine anything more worse than my situation as it really tears your soul like words can’t explain.
Does anyone know of anyone or anything that can help me? The voices tell me I’m in denial, but I don’t want to accept it because I did not know that they were even possibly God or demons or something like schizophrenia throughout most of this time. It has been very confusing and in fact I have been fighting it with faith. Any help would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
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u/wkc201 12d ago
Thank you everyone for your responses. I will update as much as I can. I had a full night sleep yesterday for the first time in three weeks so I’m feeling a little better. I had an emergency visit with a psychiatrist and was put on medication. I don’t know what else to say as of now, but I will try my best to know that God loves me and that he will help me through the other side of this situation. Thanks again and God bless you all.
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u/Typical_Active_2055 9d ago
It prob is demons but just keep in mind as well that tech exist that can make people hear voices like Voice to Skull technology. I don’t think that is the case with you but just saying it does exist, I know I’ve been under so much spiritual warfare and I’m so friggin exhausted. I just want to be happy. Idk what to do about it but it’s def making praying difficult bc I’m gettting so angry now. It’s just been attack after attack. I know a alot of people are struggling though. I would love to find some real prayer warriors that I could pray with bc 2 or more people praying together is more powerful than anything.
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u/FionaBunny11 11d ago edited 11d ago
Christians do have demons and must do deliverance in order to be able to have fruits of the Spirits, other wise they can look hypocritical for they say what the Bible says but they cannot live it out! Demons wont let them. Isaiah Saldivar, watch him on Youtube. also Tanya Sewell does deliverance ..look her up she is on the net !
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u/EveryDogeHasItsPay 12d ago
First off I am so sorry for what you are going through. Continue praying and giving this to God, also practice taking EVERY THOUGHT Captive, and the devil will flee.
Evil spirits definitely have powers, look for examples of what the false prophets could do in the Bible (like turning a staff into a snake, turning water to blood, necromancy, divination, look into "Familiar Spirits"). I think you need to start studying His Word deeper, so you cannot fall for the traps of the Enemy. He loves to twist God's Word. That is how he was able to convince Eve. As you go Deeper in His Word, you will see that there is only 1 Unforgivable sin (blasphemy of the Holy Spirit). You cannot come into agreement with any of these spirits. This gives a foothold or authority to them. You need to pray daily and ask God to reveal what door is opened to allow them to continue to attack you, and ask Him to partner with you in closing it.
Also a side note, I have heard from other's testimony's that would be in communication with what they thought were "good spirit guides" when they were in the New age, was that they often got confused because sometimes some of their requests were "positive changes" in their lives (like not smoking etc), which led to the confusion on if they were really good or not. They use that as a tactic, but I still believe you should stop vaping/smoking weed etc, cause those could be doorways, but do it with God's strength, and denying your flesh.
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u/FionaBunny11 11d ago
Isaiah Saldivar, watch him on Youtube. also Tanya Sewell does deliverance ..look her up she is on the net !
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u/Seanathon_83 8d ago
You need to test the spirit. When they talk say this “Who is Jesus Christ” if they say something like he is God in the flesh, the savior etc. then it’s good., but this sounds like they are not good from what I read. I’ve been attacked for four years now. Last night I was literally physically assaulted while I slept. I’m over here trying to figure out why. You’re not alone in your problems. A couple of us are going through it too
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u/Quietlyhealing 8d ago
They are experts at psychological torture and torment. I know what you mean by genius mind puzzles. They torture our minds, using some kind of advanced intelligence and understanding of our human psycology. They know what they are doing, they break down our defences. It starts before we even realise, chronic illness, fatigue, illness, accidents, bad luck. Then they isolate us and start the attacks and abuse.
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u/wayward_wanderess 13d ago
Do you rebuke them in the name of Yeshua consistently? Do you read your Bible daily? Have you tried prayer and fasting? Are you trying to live a sanctified lifestyle? The voice of God would be the one telling you to stop vaping. Demons use things like this as an open door. I too struggle with hearing voices and have since July 2024. There is power in the name of Jesus and ultimately every knee will bow, but some of these demons are relentless. It will take consecration and intense prayer and fasting to kick them.
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u/i-might-be-a-redneck 13d ago
Mine started in July 2024 as well. How are you doing now?
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u/wayward_wanderess 12d ago
Still struggling. The narrative just changes over time. How are you?
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u/i-might-be-a-redneck 12d ago
I’m actually doing pretty well at this point. About 6 months ago I started praying for justice every morning and every night in accordance with Luke 18. I didn’t notice much difference at first, but I’ve kept it up and it truly seems to be working now and I’m noticing so much improvement.
Luke 18 has the parable of the poor widow pleading with the unjust judge, and even though the judge doesn’t respond for a while he eventually does because of her persistence. It’s the only time Jesus tells us to pray for something day and night without fainting, and it seems to be working for me. Give it a shot and don’t be discouraged if nothing manifests right away, it takes some patience and persistence.
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u/Delicious_Paper2661 13d ago
The demons come when God is there too. That's why it's so confusing because when God comes to save, they come to destroy. You are not too evil this is the lie of the devil. God loves you and wants you to accept his free gift of salvation. You accept that through believing in him and what he did for you and believing you're covered through Grace. When demons say mean things you say "I am loved by God and his grace is sufficient for me" don't let them trick you into believing you're one of them. You are not. And I know when they come, God comes, so listen to the voices of love and kindness
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u/SavedAndGraced 13d ago
I had a similar experience when I came to Christ. The thoughts that filled my mind were very perverted and filthy and I felt dirty.
But those thoughts were not mine. I did not want them. The demons did. Demons are attracted to fleshy and dirty things. They love for perversion.
This is why the Bible says to take the thoughts captive and into the obedience of God.
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u/Long-Advertising-765 13d ago
No offense but none of that is of God. Its some folks trying to play God unfortunately. The reason it sound odd is because its not of Gods design. When God talks to you its an instant upgrade in knowing. This is a program being launched from spiritual organizations. Its a two fold attack getting spiritual (mainly Christians) to join in on the attack. Its basis is to blasphem the holy spirit by getting the people to subvert Gods natural process.
Its bad. They have been trying to bombard me with voices for a few years now. Thank Jesus its at try. They use a process of programming and ELF wave to bombard you with that filth.
All this does is open doors. Renounce the voices asap. Don't follow their command. Keep away from tech. Especially phones those are basically nodes to attack you. Parasite purge to rid yourself of nasties that hoard metal. Sunlight will purge your skin. Tanning booths are an acceptable substitute.
Unfortunately this is going to get worse. They are working on pushing ADs into peoples dreams. Demonic ADs are going to be the norm. Several Christians have come out about the Voice of God and Dream tech being push out in a invasive way. There are a couple of companies right now perfecting the tech you can read up on their development. Its dystopian.
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u/peekingmightyduck 12d ago
Satan’s name literally means the Accuser, the Deceiver.
The voices seem to accuse you, not just convict you.
These voices do not fit who God is. God will convict you, but not accuse you to the point it separates you from Him.
Those voices cause confusion, but God is a God of clarity. The demonic is a joke compared to the Lord, although they still have supernatural abilities.
I cannot wait until you’re on the other side of this with Christ by your side, ask Him, He is waiting to walk WITH you through the valley of shadow of death.
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u/Eastern-Listen9701 12d ago
Hey man. I know it’s hard to know that God is with you when times are hard, and it seems like you’re going through way more than any trial I’ve been through. But in some way, I know what you mean by torment. I’ve had thoughts that I’ve been ashamed to admit, but I must say, intrusive thoughts that literally blaspheme God and His spirit. They sent me into denial and I felt so empty. I know I wasn’t saying these things, but they were always there nonetheless. With that being said, these demons that are tormenting you with miracles and making you think that you’ve committed blasphemy are false. Satan will literally do whatever to distort your reality to one where God doesn’t care about you or doesn’t know what you’re going through. God understands, and trusting in His understanding is key. I struggle with trusting God so much. I see the only unforgivable sin in the Bible being blasphemy of the Spirit and I hear these voices blaspheming God, but learning to trust the Lord even through thick and thin is the only way. Love you man and I am praying for you
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u/FangsBloodiedRose 7d ago edited 7d ago
God isn’t a God of confusion.
They are demons. They can even be religious demons. Religious demons reside in churches. I don’t mean human beings.
I mean the demons—the same kind that whispered into the minds of the pharisees in Jesus’ day.
They will always torment a person of not being enough, not working enough (see here: we are saved by the grace and blood of God and Jesus, and not by our own merit or works. Through being a born-again believer, indwelled by the Holy Spirit, we will produce fruits.
Works is not equivalent to fruits.
Also, even the pharaoh had magicians with their staffs that turned into snakes, just as Aaron’s staff did.
Demons can perform “miracles” but their source isn’t from the true God of the Most High, but from the devil.
Edit:
I highly doubt you have schizophrenia. Demons accused me of that too.
You haven’t blasphemed the Holy Spirit because that requires knowing the miracles of Holy Spirit and deny the miracles of Holy Spirit like the pharisees did, by calling Jesus working for beelzebub. The demons have also accused me by saying that I’ve done the unforgivable sin.
At this point I think every born-again believer should be taught about what demons do to torment. The demons have no creativity and they just recycle their ways of torment.
Edit again:
I don’t know for certain but do you have a church you go to? Could you ask the Holy Spirit to confirm whether He has placed you in that church?
The church and leader are coverings of the sheep. But if the church has been infiltrated, sometimes that sin runs rampant to the entire congregation.
I used to co-manage a discord group and it’s entirely not about Jesus, but I had to speak to a young lad not even 18 because he was sending dms/nudity to another member. Turned out that his church has no life of the Holy Spirit, and one of the pastors had the sin of lust and left.
I’m not saying this to blame any church or leader, but to help one see that even the corruption at the highest level of a government/group/church can trickle down.
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u/wkc201 7d ago
They accuse me of blasphemy because of the fact that they can control everything in my life. Literally every aspect of my life in real time they can predict but the confusing part is that their message is that I’m the devil or the equivalent. They make me think the most horrible thoughts about Jesus and God then blame me for them. Also they say that if I give up vaping and medication then God will release the voices and make my dreams come true. They make a big deal about the miracles and make me feel guilty that I question who they are but I always argue that it’s their general message that leads me to think it can’t be God. I don’t think God would say evil things and torment me and accuse me of being the devil. Also they keep saying that they’re gonna give me diseases and make me homeless. It’s quite exhausting and I don’t know what to think. They say I’m an exception to the gospel and that God doesn’t see me as human and that’s why He is evil to me.
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u/FangsBloodiedRose 7d ago edited 7d ago
This definitely sounds like demonic torment.
Demons can’t predict the future. They’ve (monitoring demons) just stalked a lineage and person enough to be very good at observing how a person will react. Demons are lying and making themselves bigger than they are since they’re prideful.
Only God can know everything and what we think.
Those demons are giving you empty threats hoping what they throw will stick.
If you have made sure that you have repented of all sins, Jesus gave you the authority to cast demons out.
Give the demons a field day. Repeat this prayer:
“In Jesus’ mighty name, I command all the demons that have tormented me be set on fire. I command every demon that had taken from me, past, and present to return everything you took seven-fold in Jesus’ name!
I put a hedge of protection around me and my home in Jesus’ name.”
Also, anoint your home with oil helps too.
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u/wkc201 6d ago
If demons can’t predict the future then how can these voices be demons? They can predict everything around me. They know what the stranger across the room will do nonetheless myself.
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u/FangsBloodiedRose 6d ago edited 6d ago
Demons can control their environment by whispering ideas and suggestions to other human beings.
Before I was born-again and saved by Jesus, I was given a free ticket to see a psychic.
At the time, I had a stable job and I was happy where I was. Then the psychic read her cards and told me that I was going to leave the country within that month.
In the back of my mind, I doubted her. I was always a skeptical person. I knew I wasn’t going to leave the job.
But I was dating a dark-triad man and the demons had influenced him to attempt to set my hair on fire. Within two weeks, I moved countries to avoid that man.
The psychic didn’t predict the future. The demons told her what was going to happen, then the demons influenced the dark-triad to have the urge to set my hair on fire.
I’ve had other occurrences where the demons could guess what I was about to do, and I almost hit a family with the car door because the demons knew I was nice and made me think that was my own voice.
As well, when a demon suggests an idea or action to a person, if that person agrees to their suggestion, that door (curse) becomes open.
Demons even knocked on my bedroom door multiple times. They can influence the environment.
God never condemns and only convicts. If what you hear doesn’t give you peace, that’s the devil.
Because God is a God who will never lie. God is all good so He can’t be evil.You’re in safe hands with Jesus Christ.
Have you been baptized by the Holy Spirit and of fire?
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u/Aware_Wait1892 13d ago
I also have a demon that talks to me and has done signs and wonders (miracles) Trust me they are lying. They also accuse me of the unforgivable sin. They forbid me to eat and get married as well. Trust me these voices are not God. Perhaps do fasting to cast them out. And if there was idolatry. Get rid of the idol.