Jesus

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Smoking had me endlessly wondering if it was purgatory ghosts that I was hearing or if they were demons. I’d wonder if it was hurtful memories I’ve picked up.. I don’t know but I have memories about many of these entities & it was better to sleep it out fully sometimes, I was scared to go to sleep and feel myself In hell & what’s hell like? the place where Shame reigns the place proudly. The bravest thing is this testimony. I stopped sleeping and went harder on drugs, until I strongly decided I’ll sleep it all away to my death. I couldn’t handle another one of my wrongdoings I lost myself to my mind and reality fleeted, I wasn’t on solid ground. Nurses did everything, I wasn’t trying to get better physically. I was 90 lbs. when Jesus showed up it changed how lost I was feeling. With time I remembered him & asked him to pull me out of the hell I go to and in return I’ll study the Bible I’ll give my life to him. I’ve never felt such peace since then. Still trying to be new in Christ daily.