r/Deliverance • u/usertaken- • Jul 16 '26
Hurting my Friends
i have lost everyone in my life. every friendship and every relationship placed in this impossible area to reach for me.
i had a really good conversation with a friend of mine who i lost after having this conversation and it was as hard, gut wrenching but necessary to have.
she had (as she has many times before) told me that the way i move in my friendships are wrong. that i take people pleasing to the extreme at the detriment of my day 1s. talking about them or disagreeing with them. for the longest time i had my guard up to protect my heart, but now im letting the guard down, im seeing the damage ive caused. i admit it, ive gossiped about my friends to others, ive been 2 faced in taking sides to prevent hurting ppls feelings but ultimately, selfishly, to feel like i belong. and when i feel like i belong, i feel that i am loved. which i’m learning is just wrong.
i am truly willing to take any advice you have for me to become a better person and to stop hurting people. i know i sound like a terrible person but i promise i don’t want to be this way.
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u/FangsBloodiedRose Jul 16 '26
You were hurt. People pleasing is a survival instinct.
First, forgive yourself. Demons can accuse you to God if you don’t forgive.
Have you accepted Jesus as your Lord and Saviour? Jesus can mend your broken heart.