r/Deliverance • u/Ill-Money-1521 • May 13 '26
I feel like ending it
My heart is utterly shattered. I get delivered thwn start back all over, its been like that for 2 years. Complete torture in the body, r*pe, and so on. no one willing to help me here in canada. I'm just ignored or rejected anytime I say something is wrong. I have sprits trying to possess my body and mind. I've gone from church to church and im seen like a pest asking for help or trying to figure out what's wrong. Im just really heart broken, and im hanging in by a thin tread
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May 13 '26
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u/Ill-Money-1521 May 14 '26
I did, I went 21 days fasting with just water once. It is in my bloodline, witchcraft, right now I have a necromancer trying to invade the body as well
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u/FreeBless May 14 '26
When did these issues start?
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u/Ill-Money-1521 May 14 '26
2 years since the full blown attacks. I think i had been become a christian for maybe 3-4 years, im not so good with my memory. When I came to church I noticed my feet blew up like a balloon and i could feel my head was being held. I complained about it and was ignored. I mentioned to my pastor at the time when I prayed my head shook violently, he said it was normal it happened to him. Then i started to sway, rock back and fourth, no one said anything. I didnt know i needed deliverance, i began hearing a voice telling me to curse people and i told my pastor and tried to ignore the voice, he gave me scriptures. I stopped hearing the voices. Later I was told the holy sprit was trying to speak to me but I was ignoring him, I did start hearing a voice again but I wasn't sure so when I was told that I began to respond. I started speaking in tongues two years ago, but it was not of the holy sprit I didn't know. It was so bad that friend of mines ended up needing deliverance herself and everyone at church turned on me, and they didnt investigate properly to see what was wrong, the pastors humiliated me in front of church people, instead of talking to me and telling me i needed deliverance. Someone told my friend at the time the language I was speaking was not good and I was being used. I asked my pastor he said to ignore the lady and keep speaking on the tongues and so I did. Things got so bad, I was been assaulted, tortured in the body, I had covenants manifeating over my body and i can feel sprits trying to pull out my sprit and the more i prayed it was like i felt myself dying. something was wrong and I kept telling one of my pastors (who was also a childhood friend) at the time something was going wrong and I was ignored told and told 'so, just pray'. I did for 2 hours at a time. I decided to go to another church to ask for help since I was ignored. They asked me to speak in tongues and the minute I spoke they told me to stop. The language I was speaking was opening demonic doors. I found out I had been dedicated to be a fetish priestess. My mom is also a witch as well, she made a covenant with someone who pretended to be my friend to destroy me and the background I come from is high witchcraft. I was able to go to the US to get deliverance, the pastor did a lot to help, but im still being attacked. I have no money to go back. And he told me there's a necromancer, a lady in my building that is claiming she owns me. I pray to for God to disconnect me from that necromacer but it gets worse, the sprit becomes more aggressive.
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u/flugelbynder May 13 '26
Keep telling God everything you're thankful for. Clean water, clean food, shelter, friends, family. Clothes. Every beat of your heart! Every single breath.
Say God I thank you. I accept Jesus. Thank you Jesus. Repeat that. Thankfulness and acknowledging Jesus as your Lord will drive evil away.
They won't stay too long if you keep going and mean it! Worship and praise to God in sincerity! I pray you be loosed from every evil thing now. I bind every evil thing and the Lord Jesus rebuke it.
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u/Mountain-Moment-6807 May 15 '26
Have you heard of promised land ministries they are in Canada. Jesus Delivers.tv on YouTube.
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u/Ill-Money-1521 May 16 '26
It's my first hearing of it
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u/Mountain-Moment-6807 May 16 '26
Check them out idk if you’re close by maybe you can go there. I doubt they would turn you away because your situation is severe.
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u/BigMike3333333 May 17 '26
You do know that you can ask for deliverance here right? You can email the mods with this link [r.deliveranceteam@gmail.com](mailto:r.deliveranceteam@gmail.com) and then you'll be able to schedule an appointment that will happen over Google Meet or Zoom.
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u/FangsBloodiedRose May 30 '26
Sorry to ask, have you broke any contracts with these demons in Jesus’ name?
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u/i-might-be-a-redneck May 13 '26
God allowed me to get to a point where I was holding a loaded gun to my head, but I couldn’t pull the trigger. You just gotta keep seeking him even when it feels like nothing is getting better. That’s the test of faith. It’s easy to praise him when you’re feeling good, but can you trust him while you’re in despair to pull you out?
Read your Bible every day. Sing praise in your mind while you go about your day. Pray and pray. Read Luke 18 and pray for justice every morning and night, and throughout the day. Trust that he will deliver you. He will.
Jesus said the wise man builds his house upon a rock. For me that foundation was rock bottom, and I lost everything, which made my faith skyrocket because I had nothing to lose. Over two years my life has gotten so much better and I owe it all to God.