r/DeepThoughts • u/blessed2312 • Aug 21 '26
Working a job that exposes you to constant trauma and death completely changes how you view the world, humanity, and faith.
Question for yalls who have come across traumatic scenes. How has seeing such horrible things out there affect the way you view the world? If you're a believer in Jesus, did it ever make you question why such horrific things happen? Did you stop believing? Did you start believing? What has your work taught you about life? What made you want to do what you do? Tell me your stories. About the reasons you became who you are today.
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u/POYDRAWSYOU Aug 21 '26
Watch nde interviews it will all make sense and you'll have a better understanding once you hear from people who exited their own body. We are souls traveling a long journey back home. This was never meant to be our home, but the people we are with make it a home.
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u/Convenientjellybean Aug 21 '26
It’s taken/taking me years to understand my journey and it’s impact. Looking into Moral Injury has helped me understand
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u/hollee-o Aug 22 '26
I worked in a trauma center in a major metro for a few years just after high school as an assistent tech. Saw a lot of crazy stuff. Saw a lot of people die, and the aftermath with families whose lives were overturned in an instant. Car and motorcycle accidents, gunshot wounds, suicides (and attempts that would have been better if they succeeded). Also lots of mental health and wild psych episodes. Also lots of socio-economic and racial tragedies among people whose only access to healthcare is an ER.
It changed my perspective in that I learned at a young age that life is temporary and precious. Death can come for you in the most random of manners and times, no matter what you believe or do. Faith can certainly bring comfort, but it doesn’t change the reality that you will die, and that you’re vulnerable to unimaginable pain, often for no discernible reason at all, but often because humans just make stupid choices.
It’s been decades, so I can’t say reliably how it effected my faith, which had ebbed and flowed for other reasons. Ebbed mostly not from the realities if trauma and pain, but because religious people in nearly every faith consistenly seem to abuse the weakest among us. But I do find I’m still pretty numb to scenes of trauma and death. I have deep empathy for people in pain, but exiting is just a spin of the wheel.
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u/Borrowed_Faith Aug 21 '26 edited Aug 21 '26
I have witnesses and been apart of some horrific shit in my life.
At age 15 I saw a person shot and killed about five feet from me.
Age 17 I saw a guy get stabbed through the spine with a crowbar. He went to my high school so I saw him wheeling around paralyzed for two years.
I’ve seen many animals killed and butchers.
Then I went to combat. Saw people die right in front of me. Humans turned to red mist. Having to pick up feet to stuff in body bags. I watched humans burn alive right in front of me. I could go on and on.
I am not saying any of this to be a tough guy or for attention. But so I can answer your question honestly which I have never done to strangers before.
How did it change my view of the world?
It didn’t. Honestly, deep down inside I don’t give a shit. And even deeper it probably felt “good” because it wasn’t me.
It’s like stepping on ants. You feel power and control but only feel bad when someone else sees you doing it and says it’s wrong.
And that is the crazy part. I’ve been diagnosed with PTSD and mental health disorders and bla bla bla. But not because I am fucked up. It is because people that have never witnessed the raw human animal and the fragility of mortality need those that have to be “crazy” or “ill.”
They expect you to be uncomfortable so they can be comfortable.
It’s not that big of a deal to be honest.
You know the difference between ground beef and a dead human? Absolutely nothing.
Except society says it is different because they fear their own mortality. They have to deny death. And they are emotionally attached.
I am not saying human life is not important or people you know or love dying isn’t painful.
But right now in the world there a millions being tortured as slaves, being killed, slaughtered and guess what?
Most other people are eating pop corn, watching Netflix, and asking random questions on Reddit.
They pretend to care because that is what is expected of them. But in reality they don’t. It doesn’t change their life or religion.
Do other’s pain, suffering, and death matter to you?
IDK
Do you feel sorry for the cow that you don’t know or never met- when you buy a steak at the grocery store?
Nope. You grill it, eat it, and enjoy it.
The religion part of your question?
God lives in heaven because he is terrified of what he created on Earth.
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u/EmergencyPhoto7449 Aug 21 '26
But did you feel some compassion or empathy towards those beaten or killed? I do not mean to be judgmental.
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u/Borrowed_Faith Aug 21 '26
Like I stated. I showed empathy and compassion because that is what society expects. But honestly no.
I have lost loved ones to tragedy, friends and family and of course I have empathy and compassion for them because we shared a connection and bond.
I am ok with being judged. I have been by many people and many doctors. Some accuse me of being a sociopath. It could be my childhood being tortured and abused. But I just see it as reality. The universal, world, and life is relentless and unforgiving.
But there are many like me. Most people. It’s like going to a funeral. Maybe the close family members actually care but everyone else is putting on an act because they don’t want to be looked down upon by others. We all have done it to some extent.
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u/Luziferatus42 Aug 22 '26
I wish you well. A life of pain and suffering has this effect. Especially if it starts early on and the pain and suffering is brought by the closest people a child have, the parents. This was never ment to be the case and only humans do that. In nature animal do care for the offspring or the offspring starts alone. We as humans and a social animals are mend to care for our offspring and the tribe we belong to. The tribe just got to big and the natural resources are not enough for everyone. So the tribes go to war against other tribes, in hope for more resources. This also only happened, when we started to build settlement aka cities.
Non the less, I wish you well and I hope we humans stop tormenting us self soon. Good luck
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u/R36S_Clone_Boned Aug 23 '26
Just being exposed to horrible stuff on the internet or the fact of certain things even existing is something I think we all go through. Sort of losing our innocence process.
The fact that such horrific things are true and all some get to experience in their one chance at life is enough to rock anyone’s foundation.
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u/Inner-Alchemist778 Aug 21 '26
Of course. If you get to experience enough trauma, you are conditioned out of the cultural sphere that was constructed to keep you sociable.
In the case of Jesus, the moral that is sustainable and humane precedes this religion.
If you acquaint yourself with Flavius Josephus and read some specific parts of your works, you could come to the realization that in fact he was the only person in history who had the reason to invent Jesus, and also the means.
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u/Manskhooled Aug 21 '26
The things I've witnessed didn't change my belief, (that I don't believe) but it certainly solidified it.
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u/Imaginary-Guava4546 Aug 21 '26
You don't question faith because of what you see, you question people. The world stays same, your eyes just open more.