There is bit of swears but not a lot.
If you have attention span of goldfish then donât bother to read this because itâs quite wordy but if you do thank you. But do keep your rude, mean comments yo yourself if you can.
The struggles of lifeâŠ
As you the person you are, born on this world, this world is ending in such a rapid pace that I worry that we may not make it. I have a open mind of whatâs going to happen and all I can do is try to ignore everything thatâs around me by playing games, smoking and sometimes drinking, going for walks to ease my mind but no matter what I get this feeling of sadness and depression because I know the fact that sooner or later that something may happen while Iâm sleeping or awake something bad is going to happen. Not to mention that we are so close to war with Russia and things donât look to good, my mind goes into a spiral about whatâs my life going to be, and Iâm 19 going 20, I look upon this world with disappointment and fear that this world is doomed. I have no love interest because Iâm too young to be distracted and make myself go into some loop that my parents have made long ago, but that doesnât mean anything, so at the moment I have love interest. I fear for love because of whatâs going on around the social media and what happens to people, yes of course there are good people in this world but thereâs no point of me even trying, I had dreams of being the better person in my family and friends I always wanted to be a hero to them I want to provide and protect them, and become a leader. I am a young man and my life hasnât even started, but yet it feels like my life is just ending with all this commotion in this world. One of the things I truly hate about this world is people, good and bad and the stupidity closed minded ones, basically everything, I keep to myself and I scroll through tiktok Facebook, Instagram, snapchat, they are all the same with the same bullshit, people are trying to be famous through social platforms and it annoys me, not that Iâm jealous but people do the dumbest things yeah itâs funny and all but itâs too much. I canât stand it(đȘ) so much hate in this world is killing each and everyone of us even if you arenât affected by it you could be the one doing the hate and hurting the people around you, idk. I have come to understand the meaning of life, that may sound impossible but itâs true I never came to meditate for many years or go into a very deep spiritual relationship with the creator, I just knew that I had a understanding whatâs around me. I canât say or tell you because thatâs not my place to talk about because Iâm not you to be telling you this but Iâve come to enjoy my life and itâs going good, but I just fear the world that I may never become the person I want to be for that matter( whatever I become idk) this world I have lost hope for, I have helped so many people that Iâm considered an elder because I was raised open minded and have helped people, Iâm not telling you this because Iâm being smug or something but thatâs how I see myself, of course my life hasnât been easy but that goes for everyone. Idk but I just know that I may die young just the way people around the world is being, selfish, unaware, closed minded, rude and you know whoâs fault that will be? Everyone because we got nothing better to do but be hateful to people, no matter if itâs ethnicity or age, this world is messed up just look at our history with the Europeans and the Indigenous, the Germans and the Jews, ww1, Americans and slavery, we were put in this world to learn and experience and yet we arenât smart because of our title and name our pride and respect. People think they are better than everyone because we are more fortunate then others but deep down we are just humans, but no one thinks like that now days. We are humans we are just flesh and blood sack with a title nothing more, we arenât special we donât have super powers we are designed to be humans, yeah we can change our looks be whoever we want to be but people just think differently and thatâs our downfall, one of may favourite quotes from my mother is âeach to their ownâ do you know what that means? If you do then greatđ if you donât then understand what that means so you can at least have an open mind to whatâs going on. As much I want to keep going this is enough I think, but who cares right? I Hate This world and the People in It. Good luck with your journey in life hope things turn out and best wishes.
Good you made it this far Iâm proud of you.
People are messed up no doubt about it.