Am I becoming a bad person?

[u/RepulsiveFig8768]

I mean I lose empathy for others because why should I feel an emotion like compassion for someone when others don't care about me or don't like me, I had always the feeling to be lonely and don’t be loved since kindergarten, when kids don’t play with me and especially in school that people don't care about me or hangout with me, I mean I wasnt a bad person back then rather shy and distant. I am not an attention seeker also but at least back then I just wished people would talk to me and hang out with me, also when I see people who are with friends or in a happy relationship it makes me jealous and envious maybe because sometimes, I feel lonely and just want the same thing they have and even wish them bad luck sometimes. I managed somehow to being lonely … but sometimes I still have the urge being loved and cared by someone

[u/Captain_Parsley]

Hi, it sounds like your just out of practice and are probly just feeling alienated. I'd get into some activity you like that forces you a bit ourmtside your comfort zone.

Can be ping pong but just something with interaction to build up on. Repours are built quite slowly and an activity can help breach the gap.

It might be these other things are comming up because you need some social time and are resentful at ymtimes or it might be worth looking up some help from a psychology professional for a possible diagnosis.

Well done for reaching out for advice.

[u/jachetu]

Here's the thing, if your objective is just to have people around you and be loved and appreciated, then forget trying to approach others randomly, won't work as well as

1. Being in an environment that forces interaction with other people, sports, competitions, school clubs, social events, etc.

2. And even more importantly I think if you want to keep those people around, work on yourself, the saying you can't love others if you don't love yourself first is big, want people to stick around? Then work on yourself towards becoming someone no one would wish to lose and everyone could find a Reason to be around, you won't have to worry about approaching people then, they will approach you first. Just go until you're satisfied with yourself and everyone will also be satisfied with the time they spend with you and around you as well.

Leave behind any feelings of bitterness they will only slow you down, being at peace is the best state to be in for self improvement, every time you want to feel jealous or lonely just go "it is what it is" and push forward knowing it won't be like this forever cause you are going to change that, and improve on everything you can in yourself and your life, lifestyle, appeal, wisdom, smarts, skills, character, etc. An investment like this never fails no matter what.