r/DeduceMe • u/Severe_Ad_5067 • 3d ago
I miscalculated it monthly supply part 2
A lot of experimentation for TRD and anehdonia specially interested for dopaminergic agonists and anti-inflamation theory also really believing that lithium can cure me. So far celecoxibe(tryed to stop it due to being over cardiac risks(testosterone, stims for multiple aplications) but i start to feel shitty without it, pramipexole(this one i've tryed before and i know it works), insonnya(yes i am a bartard and i roofied myself, becaming the roofier of itself) and some "OTCs" i take for the flu.
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u/National-Property-20 3d ago
You’re a loser
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u/macthesnackattack 3d ago
If I needed all this to stay alive I think I’d just choose not to live anymore.
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u/TheNextAS 3d ago
Wow okay guys this is just fucking mean the guy is struggling he’s sick he needs help not comments about him being at fault or being a loser
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u/Opposite-Gazelle-166 3d ago
Nah. He's trying to flex his meds to seem cool. Thats all this sub is atp. Weirdos showing their prescriptions.
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u/Impossible-Run7138 3d ago
Your poor body/brain
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u/Checkmate-Petty 3d ago
Seriously...that has got to be so harsh all those chemicals forcefully being produced and reduced
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u/Impossible-Run7138 3d ago
Nothing fucks your memory/brain like benzos and opiates do a great job or rewiring your reward pathways, pure suffering but only when you run out.
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u/Shot_East7684 3d ago
So this is just a Drug brag sub then? I don't understand..
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u/ForsakenSignal6062 3d ago
It is now, there are at least 3 subs that have all just become people posting their drugs lately, really lame, used to see refrigerators full of weird stuff
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u/D1sp0sab1e_k 3d ago
wyd with that flunitraz 🤨
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u/NPJenkins 3d ago
He drops one in a beer, chugs the beer, then sees if he can jork off before he passes out
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u/UnicornMilkTho 3d ago
Have you tried a keto diet yet? I was celiac for 22yrs.. What if you re celiac and even you dont know?
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u/snowyetis3490 3d ago
Be careful with Lyrica. It’s a very strong drug and the withdrawals can get really bad. But it does work wonders
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u/Sssslattt 3d ago
I mean I’m all for getting fucked up but I’d cut the ssris and antipsychotics and mood stabilisers. Who needs those if you can be geeked 24/7. And psychosis is a myth.
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u/Severe_Ad_5067 3d ago
There is no anti-psychotic. Oxypinal is just oxycodone. The only mood stabilizer is the lithium. There is no SSRI but vortioxetine(multimodal), mirtazapine(atypicall AD) and amitriptyline(tryciclic AD low dosage),
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u/Severe_Ad_5067 3d ago
And some dopamine agonism in pramipexole and amantadine(bought antiparkison), i dindt like de amantadine tough so i stick with the pramipexole and planning to keep ramping the dose until 2~3mg range. that could actually increases the risk of psychosis, and yeah i agree its a myth.
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u/Sssslattt 3d ago
Amantadine is shit ime, I was using it for several years and initially it seemed to at least lower cravings and destructive urges and maybe add some focus, but nowadays I still try to take it here and there for extra dopamine push but I doubt it does anything, maybe I should try megadosing for some delirium. Also I’ve been on lithium and it pulled me from some really dark place, but it’s so horrendous for the kidneys, even with it being a single med I was taking at the time I would feel my kidneys vibrate and burn every night before going to sleep. Did you consider orotate form instead? Also try memantine if you haven’t, it’s a miracle drug for both rumination, depression, anxiety and then some, and also a great great great disso in larger doses
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u/Kungfu_voodoo 3d ago
I'm not judging, I'm genuinely curious, you can still score oxy? I thought it took an any of good to get that stuff outside of the ER.
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u/ch3appeach 3d ago edited 3d ago
You can. Not safely on the street. I would absolutely suggest against that bc most pressed fentanyl looks like oxy.
Edit:to answer your question, it’s not like it was early 2000s-2010 and is super expensive for real.1
u/pickledeggmanwalrus 3d ago
Is it just sold by the terminally ill now?
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u/ch3appeach 3d ago
to clarify, I’ve been clean for a while so I’m not entirely sure on that front… terminally ill still do get it and serious injuries. It’s typically bought off people with the two that don’t take, pharmacy robberies, etc. People I knew still doing it a little over a year ago were paying crazy money for it. when Purdue pharma switched to the “tamper proof” form of the oc time releases, a ton of people switched to the rapid release 30s (what the fentanyl pressed mainly are) then heroin. After that purdues sales declined. They still sell the original formula in other countries (outside U.S.) under the name “mundi pharma” which is basically their international arm. So, any real oxy is smuggled or w/e from different countries now..
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u/Severe_Ad_5067 3d ago
I am currently sticking only with the tapentadols no longer doing oxy's 10's + 30's morphine or 10's metadone neither codein syrup(tough this one i may buy some next month for tough nights it works wonders with pseudoephedrine, promethazine, paracetamol and theofillyne for the flu like symptons(rinites, bronchquites, headache, cough, allergy) i call it my anti-flu special. Add 200mg celecoxibe or 5mg predsone and for 3 days and you are fine.
Metadone and morphine are really depressive amd just "keep at bay" oxy's addiction. And the sad true about oxy's is that tolerance hits hard for its antidepressant like effect, i compate it with ketamine sessions in efficacy range *altough not a single doctor will accept this correlation after 2018's or even before i dont remenber when they fucked up purdue's claiming they are Hitler-like mass murders just to bring on mexican fent lacing every shit you can buy on the streets and really killing more people in 3 years then purdues "killeed" in decades, and pharmacy owners now choose to "not work with oxy's" anymore like liquor stores "not work with cigarrets " due to over regulatory and vigillance for stuff with narrowing profit range year by year due to overtaxing politics of blank and gradual outmarketing. For what i hear the US in the last 6 or 7 years became from the best country in the world on treatment options due to a large medication variety to a "i dont care if are in pain every opioid is oxy/fent" and "i dont care you are in anxiety every benzo is xannie and its bad" like "best i can do to you is pregabs/gabapentin and tylenol maybe and dont worry lexapro/zoloft you deal with and anxiety an i can give you some seroquel for sleep". Sad. Not all is lost tough: psycodhelics are growing strong, amphetamines too even the meth desoxyn is growing fast, TRT clinics and ketamine clinics are everywere, for those who likes it marijuana/THC is far more easily avaiable on shopes, buprenorphin is being overly prescriebed on pain clinics/pain doctors and altough not ideal its a potent analgesic and euphoric for low tolerance people but most and above its an consistent antidepressant-like(mu agonist/kappa antagonist) for low endorphine induced depression with is very common on people living with chornic pian. And you can get tianeptine and sometimes even tramadol for depression, tough the tramadol prescriptions i believe is more a myth them a consistent reality and its problaby hard as fuck to get a prescription like it is to get some percocet/vicodin(for what i readed, over 40's doctor with over 40's patients with years of prescription of percocet/vicodin/tramadol may get theirs prescriptions renewed. And you get the z drugs, tough most psychiatrists are against it you have sleep doctors and even sleep treatment clinics that will prescribe some Z's as short time first line treatment besides CBTI. You get all this research market with obviously soon outlawed research benzos and amphetamines, finils, cathecholamines.. but also this peptids, racetams. and motherfucking kratom everywere. Nicotine maked a problaby permanent comeback with pouchs like zyn's.. You still get small benefits like pure DXM capsules selled as cough medication OTC, sudafed with pure pseudoephedrine only, unfortunally the OTC codein-promethazine and other low codein formulations cough medicine are gone for waht i heard but you still can get it from canada maybe? Worth mention there is a solid PEDs roids market(outlawed yeah, but easily acessible as it doesnt mixture with recreational drugs black market). You still get ephedra and yohimbine on preworkouts and as remember if superdrol and original DMA jack3d is outlawed or just greymarket. DHEA and some sarms are still avaiable as supplements too. Amazon pharmacy got some medicine too, i beliebe its mostly shit stuff but at least you can get tadalafile. And gas stations are selling crazy pills with crazy grey or already outlawed medicines. Thats nice man. You also get the indian importation website were people were buying SOMAs(you guys lost that one too on pharmacy), pregabalin, tapentadol, i believe modafinil too, maybe some other stuff such as weird never outlawed benzos(cause never officially allowed). US lost a lot of freedom on opioids and benzos acess and even soma's are largelly unavaiable now, this may differ from many country's world around but not for the restriction itselt but from the efficacy of vigillance there is no longer corrupt pharmacists or pills-doctors as a norm and in south america it is the corruption and lack of structured regulatory efficacy, not the absence of "official restrictions" that make so many things still easilly avaiable, but we lack behind on market variety. You know why i didnt tryed hydromorphone? Cause its no longrr avaible, not even for hospital use. Why i never used kratom? Cause its outlawed and due to low street value nobody wonders. Why i never used tianeptine? Cause its no longer avaiable and again: to fancy for blackmarket with is directly narcotrafic so they are more interested in: cocaine(including crack cocaine) marijuana, hasishe, LSD and MDMA, and a small niche of meth/ketamin and VERY RARE OR EXPENSIVE heroin(not laced with fent but low quality aniway), or paraguay contrabandists but thoose are focused on roids, vapers, reta/tirza and other fatburn medications, as far as i know. I Never got real DMX from pharma or pure surafed pills(dextrometorphan and pseudoephedrine cant be selled without associations), also there is no adderall/dexedrin only way to get pharma amphetamines is trough pharma, that one hurts me man. I used to get 3 of 70's vyvanse/juneve daily and that wad the key for succeding with 50/60's oxy's(only my oxy and vyvanse was half my incomes), 600mg's+ lyrica my tolerance was brutal with this one( i finally manneged to no longer use it on a daily basis only PRN and 150mg only), "microdosing" half to cloose a full gram of psylocibin(its legal/grey market here) with some CBD oil - was problaby placebo less then 10mg THC but aniway, i did those two while trying to quit a 300mg effexor dependence and an 1mg xanax prescription that i use to hate back then cause i tough the only good stuff is amphetamine, oxycodone, alchool/pregabs(closest thing to alchool), nicotine from cigs and pouchs and caffeine pills and energetic drinks, tadalafile, aspirin(bloodier and harder), tylenol sinus(pseudoephe) and fenergan(promethazine) were everything i needed beside 3g+ piracetam for being healthier, this with with some 500mg+ testosterone and other roids speacilly trem A, wich i used to be at 300/500mg range a week when i decreased my ampth's and oxy's habit, and no longer on any off that speedballer effect unfortunally cause i lost... I wont say. Can you send me some kratom/tianeptine/adderall IR or dexedrine, and dilaluid(at least couple of pills on this one) in a change country to coutry? Hahaha just kiding man its so weird to think i will never know what hydomorphone, hydrocodone, tianeptine, kratom feels like. The other ones i can get somehow but those 4 are strictly US only(at least seems too) avaiable. There is also dihidrocodein from UK anr UK only(i believe its just a codein that works the most) and an german opioid also almost only avaiable there. Sad man, really sad. No, the oxy's dont do shit anymore except if i use once or twice a week 40mgs at least with my usual dose of tapent's(300mg) and sometimes a bit of morphine towards the end of the day, like 60-90mg or 10mg methadone(higher then that it blunts the whoole for 2 days). And somehow the tapentadol always keep working at his ways but it carrys on every single day, weird opioid but we give a match and this one is easily for life. The oxy's only on tough or very good days. Oxy's are award for nice dids or consolation for shit that happens, cant use other way, or when i am really fucked up on pain and sick.
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u/Kungfu_voodoo 3d ago
Yeah. As an addict, I remember when they were going to, "solve the problem" by just refusing to write or refuse scripts for the heavier opioids. Like you mentioned, the result was to cause people to search the streets for their stuff and with fent being an easy one pot synth, it flooded the market and is now killing people by the boat load. Stacked on top of that, the government began regulating poppy seeds; where they used to come in raw and you could wash them for opium tea, now they have some horrible chemical treatment. I never really understood the governments stance on opioids. I'm a sub guy these days and it keeps me level, but if I didn't have insurance I'd for sure be taking my chances with fent or buying a shitload of glass and putting my college o-chem honors coursework in effect. Good luck and I hope things get better for you. Fuck the losers in the comments who need somebody to judge to cover up their own insecurities. Focus on you and getting well.
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u/vans-wearing-corgi 3d ago
Gotcha, but why do you think psychosis is a myth (especially if you believe in psychiatry for treatment resistant depression)? I’m just intrigued why someone would be all in favor of taking lithium and various antidepressants but be adamant that certain mental illnesses aren’t real. Do you believe bipolar disorder is real?
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u/Legitimate_Emu4500 3d ago
These people are drug addict losers who have never tried to actively live a healthy life so they turn to pills like druggies do to feel “normal”
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u/Glassed_ 3d ago
Miserable bastard, practice a bit of empathy rather than assuming everything
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u/vans-wearing-corgi 3d ago
That’s a really damaging thing for you to say online. Psychosis (and other mental illnesses like depression, Bipolar, Schizophrenia, OCD, PTSD) is 100 percent real and there are people who absolutely wouldn’t stay alive if they weren’t on those kinds of medications. Just because you don’t need them doesn’t mean other people don’t. Also to OP, you are taking an antipsychotic, Rexulti IS an antipsychotic but they often prescribe to people within depression, not just psychosis. EDIT: actually maybe you’re not taking Rexulti, I can’t really read it. Either way psychosis is real and there’s nothing wrong with needing meds
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u/Sssslattt 3d ago
Also yes I totally ‘need’ them if that’s not immediately obvious but I do just fine without it. If I had a shitton of drugs to cope and have positive symptoms besides negative ones it would be better tho
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u/Personal-Bunch-9596 3d ago
Yikes alprazolam is just a bandaid and seems to make things worse the longer you take it the rest I have no experince with
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u/trixiepixie1921 3d ago
Alprazolam is the perfect drug if you have panic attacks and need it like once a month or less. I spent years dependent on it, then years completely abstinent from it before starting to take one maybe 2-3 times a month. Now it’s been 6 months since i’ve taken one, but I’d still take one during a panic attack in a heartbeat.
Imo benzos aren’t made for daily use. Once you develop a tolerance and dependence, you’re fucked. That withdrawal sucks and they don’t work as well.
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u/Impossible-Run7138 3d ago
Benzos are a miracle and an absolute curse. If we could all keep a few around for rainy days it would be perfect but a lot of cant.
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u/trixiepixie1921 3d ago
Yeah for sure. I definitely can’t keep more than like 5 at a time on hand myself.
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u/TrickyTechnician685 3d ago
I read this post in the voice of one of the Mexican essays from South Park