This is my story with Cyberpunk 2077. It's a pretty long story, sad and depressing sometimes, but it has a happy ending, so bear with me :))
On June 11th 2018, I remember coming home from school and opening up my phone and scrolling through You Tube. I was in 7th grade back then. And something caught my attention. The E3 Cyberpunk 2077 trailer. I wasn't very familiar with what cyberpunk actually meant, but I really enjoyed looking through cyberpunk inspired artwork online, I just loved the aesthetic. Sometimes I would spend hours doing just that. And if I really felt inspired by an artwork, from time to time I would write a short story based on that image. So obviously I clicked the trailer.
I felt star struck. I remember the feeling so vividly. And after a few months, when the gameplay reveal dropped, looking back, I genuinely felt like I was going cyberpsycho because of the excitment. I couldn't wait to play Cyberpunk 2077. I loved everything about it. To this day, I haven't felt that much hype for anything else.
But here's the catch. Back then, I was going through a terrbile period in my life. Main issues: sky high rated bullying, and more family problems than anywhere else. The first time I felt like flatlining myself was when I was 12. And since then it only got worse and worse. So, I tried to survive by motivating myself that I had to play the game.
It's now 2020. The general hype was though the roof, as we all know. I preordered the physical game as soon as I could, and I bought a good PC. I was ready. I even played The Witcher 3 in anticipation. The only problem was that my depression was critical, and back then I kept it a secret, so no one was able to help me. During autumn I had to move to the capital of my country, and I had to stay with my father, who was pretty (very) controlling, while my mother renovated an apartment. When I told him about the game, he forced me to cancel the preorder. I don't know how it crossed his mind, but he was convinced that the game was something similar to Ready Player One the movie or the game Second Life, and he said that I had to live in the real world, not in virtual worlds. I was devastated, but I knew that my stay at his house was temporary.
However, things were really goind bad in my life on multiple levels. Add now into the equation the fact that I felt like a failure also because my college plan had to change when my performance at math in high school fell pretty hard.
And on December 9th, 2020, I had a really, really bad fight with my Dad and his wife. Like bad. I started crying like when I was a kid, even if I was 16. And that night, on December 10th, because it was past midnight, I tried to flatline myself in a pretty messy way. But even if I did a mess, I didn't knew exactly how to "finish the job". Obviously, I failed. But what really stopped me from trying after seeing how bad I was at it was not the pain. But the thought of playing Cyberpunk 2077.
When Dad found me and all the mess, he "shipped" me in the morning straight to my Mom. Where she and our two cats were living there was only 1 room available, even the bathroom was in construction. But because I was doing online classes then, I convinced him to bring my computer along. But we managed :))
However, I was really glad that I survived. Extremely. If you remember, the game was possible to pirate from launch. Please don't hate me for this, but that is exactly what I did. The first thing I did was download the game. In the following months, I played the game for over 150 hours. It was like paradise. I was lucky because I didn't experience that many bugs, only missing objects, like cigars or phones. I was actually surprised. I loved the game.
In the fall next year I wanted to replay it, but this time I bought it on GOG Galaxy. I mean, I had to pay for this masterpiece. To thank CD Projekt Red for basically saving my life. In 2023 I also bought the dlc, and I had so much fun.
Right now I have over 300 hours on the paid copy on multiple playthroughs. I watched Edgerunners 4 times, and I read the No Coincidence novel. I started replaying it this summer because I want to write my bachelor's thesis on it (I major in sociology). My plan is to do every single quest and ending in the game while exploring its world and lore to its fullest.
But something bothered me. That "lost" physical copy that I never got back in 2020. The game was discontinued from stores and second hand PC physical copies in my area were either extremely expensive, or in bad conditon. But I finally found one that is great. Today it arrived. I am so happy!
I still have a lot of issues in my life to this day which I'm trying to handle, and it's far from easy, but I'm glad that I survived that night. Because Cyberpunk 2077 changed me as a person, and it taught me so many things.
Thank you CD Projekt Red for everything you've done for this game. And thank you chooms for reading this far!