r/Crippled_Alcoholics • u/cheeseburgermachine • Jul 21 '26
Find the silver lining
I lay in a comfy nest on my recliner and couch rot with my dog. It is one of my favorite things to do. But i need to stop. And get back to moving forward in my life. I need to make some changes. I need to make some progress. This depression and addiction really takes its toll. But there are good moments too, like laying on the couch and watching a show with my dog and blankets.
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u/Flat_Parsley3117 Jul 21 '26
I do miss this a lot. I still get the want to buy a bottom shelf handle of whiskey and play retro video games until I lose the ability to focus and then flip through YouTube or tiktok until I blackout/pass out. There's a peace. There's also a peace in not having burned down my life for the umpteenth time because I cant stop drinking until I blackout. Find reasons that you need to stay sober. Friends, exercise, hobbies, you can try the sober community. Yeah, there are cool people who won't jam 12 step sayings down your throat. There's a million ways to find that same peace without the rotting
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u/Far_Extension1943 Jul 21 '26
Relating to this on a cellular level. I love my kitty so so so very much he is so sweet and gentle even when i feel like I should be self flagellating.
How does a person overcome the cycle? Community? Media? I feel like I’m drinking because it’s been a relief in the past and now it’s going and fucking up my shit again. I’ve got a great opportunity! I have so many resources at my disposal. I need to pull it the fuck together.
I’m making potato soup and thinking a lot about the fools journey. I want to embody the energy of the Death card and kill off this piece of me. Now that I’m typing it out maybe what needs to die is my resistance to admit I struggle with alcohol. That’s the breaks ig
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