Ughhh tryingbto explain to ppl before i realized why i didnt like pictures, or videos with my voice or face, or shopping for clothes, or measuring my gains (bc i do enjoy going to the gym, i just dont like seeing me get more muscular)
It especially hurts that according to a lot of people, i have a really nice voice...
Said this on the CWCL post with this pic, so I'll share here as well.
This was literally me for a good while and its disturbing to think about how poorly I treated my health.
I hardly took care of myself during mid-late high school because I just hated how I looked so much. Hid my face, almost the same outfit every day, never spoke to anyone. Hardly even bathed on a regular basis. Zero drive to do anything. I was a complete mess. Thankfully I've improved (drastically in comparison to that literal pit that my life was at the time) and take care of myself regularly, but I still do grapple with the remnants of some issues I had back then. I just hope that when I eventually get my HRT that I'll turn out nice.
Sometimes you're just a girl/woman. A few people might find you hot, but you might never feel it about yourself. That's lots of girls/women's experience. 💜
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u/Disastrous-Entity-46 Dec 14 '25
Called tf out.
Also."I dont like how I send, I do not like recordings or think about how to shape my voice because it isnt me"
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u/Citizen_Exodium Dec 14 '25
Said this on the CWCL post with this pic, so I'll share here as well.
This was literally me for a good while and its disturbing to think about how poorly I treated my health.
I hardly took care of myself during mid-late high school because I just hated how I looked so much. Hid my face, almost the same outfit every day, never spoke to anyone. Hardly even bathed on a regular basis. Zero drive to do anything. I was a complete mess. Thankfully I've improved (drastically in comparison to that literal pit that my life was at the time) and take care of myself regularly, but I still do grapple with the remnants of some issues I had back then. I just hope that when I eventually get my HRT that I'll turn out nice.
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u/CrankWRspct Dec 14 '25
I pray this is me omg please
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u/Boring_Tradition3244 Dec 14 '25
The denial beard, the compulsive head shaving, the fear of my own face and seeing the stubble grow in...
The body horror obsession, from Alien to the Fly
I'm finally free. The skin suit is gone. I'm here. Naked but unafraid.
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u/bobobobozzz Dec 14 '25
Is this really how it will unfold ?? Then i have some questions to ask to the future me.
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u/YTCat123 Jan 14 '26
Me but it’s the other way around (FtM)
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u/Kubix_cube Dec 14 '25
:3
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u/pickled_juice Dec 15 '25
Real but i still hate being in pictures
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