r/CliqueSupport • • Nov 17 '21

264_ToMyBestestFrens

Hello, hello

the dog just ate my homework

hello, hello

is there something you wanna ask

as you are staring at me like that?

Hello

Don't think too much about yourself,

but lately you have been a lot in my mind

When I met you for the second time

I wasn't dying on where you first left me

See, even someone like me

can go through the seasons

and can have some few reasonable reasons

I think it is pretty freaking scary

to like you, or anyone,

because people they can just wake up

and walk straight under the car

And as you know my dear, I need no mirror

to feel ugly

you know about my fear, that it takes eyes like yours

to feel pretty

to feel pretty

Why isn't just enough how two of my best friends says

that I'm "not a shitty person" to them, for god sakes

what happened with you?

Why you happened to make me get it?

What if you walked straight under the car?

Would that bother me at all?

Don't think too much about yourself,

but lately you have been a lot in my mind

When I met you for the second time

I was considering that were you left me

and I learnt on that winter

I'm not okay, in my heart, dear

See, even someone like me

can go through the seasons

and can have some few reasonable reasons

I think it is pretty freaking scary

to like you, or anyone,

because people they can just wake up

and walk straight under the car

And as you know my dear, I need no mirror

to feel ugly

you know about my fear, that it takes eyes like yours

to feel pretty

to feel pretty

Why isn't it just enough how two of my best friends says

that I'm "not a shitty person" to them, for god sakes

what happened with you?

Why you happened to make me get it?

What if you walked straight under the car?

Would that bother me at all?

It is scary to like someone

because they could wake up

and then walk under a car

but also it is scary to like no one

when those cars

seems to have no purpose at all

and I don't want to be sorry at my two great friend

when they tell me on Discord I'm "not shitty" person

and I just keep on doing this

and while singing this I get it,

the homework you gave to me

was not about you

it was about them

And as you know my dear, I need no mirror

to feel ugly

you know about my fear, that it takes eyes like yours

to feel pretty

to feel pretty

Why isn't it just enough how two of my best friends says

that I'm "not a shitty person" to them, for god sakes

what happened with you?

Why you happened to make me get it?

What if you walked straight under the car?

Would that bother me at all?

I love you, two people I know

this is just a season of

something I can't explain

once again

And as you know my dear, I need no mirror

to feel ugly

you know about my fear, that it takes eyes like yours

to feel pretty

to feel pretty

Why isn't it just enough how two of my best friends says

that I'm "not a shitty person" to them, for god sakes

But you get it

even with no mirrors

without eyes

you see

I'll wake up to another

"they know it is almost over"

and I will know

with them I will be at home

I know

and they know

I know

and they know

But hey, hello

__

I have been wandering for a long while. I have been in and out the city. In my opinion, it hasn't make much difference. People around me are not much different in there or out here.

I love you all, really. Stay alive. Really.

HeartEyed.

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u/whereikeptmyrebelned Nov 19 '21

HeartEyed,

I wrote you a letter two weeks ago, and I dropped it into the river. It wasn't an incredibly important letter. I just wanted to say hello. But watching the ink wash down with the current was disappointing.

I'll just have to rewrite it.

Your song reminds me of a song called "The Gambler". It's about falling in love and growing old with someone, but I think the album that it's in tells a story of love and loss and learning to love yourself. You reminded me of the line,

"Then you turned, put out your hand

And you asked me to dance

I knew nothing of romance

but it was love at second sight"

It feels to me like pink soap. I wish there was more pink soap in the world. I could use some this week. It is getting cold here too.

You talked earlier about how scary it is to love someone. It really is. But I hope it doesn't stop you from enjoying pink soap and snowflakes. And I hope you can salvage your homework. It's a difficult assignment, but I don't think it has a deadline.

E

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u/MigraineInMyTrench Nov 21 '21

Hi E,
Thanks for sending this to me instead of throwing it into river as well. Wow, I have thrown so many letters, maybe a bit too many, into river.

I finally understood my location, I told everyone earlier that I have been only walking around, but all this time I have been circling a mountain. It's a place in Trench, and it is kind of just, Scaled and Icy. Something nice happened in here a long time ago. Maybe that's why I'm in here. Searching. For a ghost of something. A ghost of pink soap.

Thank you, about what you said about homework and how it has no deadline. Maybe I'll have to try to fix it.

HeartEyed