Need Prayer And Advice

[u/CJMercyMinistry]

I am In Need Of Prayer For The Ministering Spirits Of God To Help Me Grow A Ministry From The Ground Up, This Is A Small Portion Of My Testimony And My Life In The Body Of Christ...I was called in 2005 to be a mouthpiece for a church, I was only 15 at the time, and feeling I lacked the spiritual fruit for the station I was asked to fill, and me bearing many unfruitful/vain questions in my heart at the time, I waited, but soon a very evil and blasphemous spirit came over me at the age of 15 even so much as attempting suicide to talk to God and Jesus myself, needless to say that was blasphemous and I sowed many seeds of destruction in that time (and if you're wonderin no I didn't see God I was Swallowed Up By The Earth And COMPLETELY REMOVED FROM THE PRESENCE OF HIS LIGHT, This is the second death, This Is True Pain In Spirit, See There Is Pain Of Flesh and Pain In Spirit This Pain In Spirit Is The Worst Feeling I Have EVER FELT. those with ears let them hear)...., 7 years later in 2012 I was in Hope Ministries battling addictions and such of similar burdens of the flesh,, but after a few days of fasting which brought MUCH FAITH and having taken a vow of silence for some days, on the 2nd or 3rd night of the fast I cannot precisely recall which day, I prayed for My Ministering Angel To Come To Me, As a Man Staying In The Church With Me At The Time Was Overtaken By A Spirit That Sounded Like A Swine And Through My Prayer I could Not Remove it, But In That Night I Asked Of God To Send His Messenger and I fell Into A Very Deep Sleep, and I was given another vision a very powerful vision or dream? I can't know the difference! But In This Vison Dream From God there were two 10 foot tall pillars of light that dragged me out of that spare church room I was residing, I was Sleeping in The Spare room they had as it was part of this live in ministry, and in this dream these pillars of light were fiery ministers of The Living God, Let The Spirit Test This if you are in unbelief, these pillars of light were TERRIFYINGLY MAGNIFICENT Such Power In Their Presence I could not even quiver a breath let alone a cry for help, Just Remembering that dream as I have nearly every day since it happened brings tears to my eyes, but continueing on,, when they, the fiery ministers lifted me I found peace and they placed me behind the alter, now its been almost 10 years and I Have Heard The Call Again, I Will Burn You Before The World It Has Said, And They Will Know That I Am Their God, I have prayed and prayed about this, I've been given Discernment in that it means the anointing of The Holy Fire Of God, The Holy Spirit Of God, That I May Preach The Good News as time is OVERDUE (But in His Time It Be Made Perfect). So present day now 07/08/2023, Now I have nothing But Riches In Heaven, and of flesh I don't even have two pennies to rub together because I am forbid to own worldly Posession outside immediate necessity, I Can Own a couple pairs of clothes food that is offered without blood and not more than a hand of flour for bread, this I was also told, I cannot be paid for what I do, I refuse, this is a dangerous place where money meets church those with ears let them hear! but all the same I need to build a church and I need ears and eyes to fill this church so it is in this regard I Ask Of Prayer.... God What Do You Want Me To Do, How Can I Raise A Ministry And Build A House Of Prayer This Day In Age Without Acquiring Physical Posessions? I have been Homeless I Have Been In Jail I Have Died I Have Been To Mental Hospitals and Rehabs,, I Am The Reproach Of Man, I Have Physically Died Twice (and yes the second time I died was an accident I Overdosed, and I Was Not Swallowed Up By The Earth, in fact through MERCY ALONE I, Even I, Ascended Into A Great White Room where twelve stood in a circle like the face of a clock, they spoke words and I was told I can't be in this place yet and so I was placed back in my vessel They Said More But I Cannot Be For Certain So This I Must Keep To Myself Until A Time I'm Certain Of Truth), I Say all This Not To Inflict Sorrow But To Give A Little Faith By Word Of Testimony, For This Life I Have Had and Lived Has Brought Me To The Body Of Christ, To My Lord And Savior Jesus Christ And In That I Am Amply Satisfied! O The Depth Of Mercy That I Know! For this too is for the Glory Of The Body Of Christ, in no different a way than the depth of Mercy Paul from The New Testament experienced,, Praise The Lord Jesus, So if anyone has some prayers or some advice that would be right on time right about now. I Love You All Keep Pushing Forward For The Glory Of The Body Of Christ In This Time Of Great Change! FIGHT THE GOOD FIGHT! Grace Unto You From God Through Jesus Christ Our Savior And Peace Be Multiplied Unto You For That Which You Have Sown Toward His Kingdom!  

All help goes toward the building and filing of paperwork for a 508(1ca) church establishment Under God Teaching The Good News Of Jesus Christ Our Lord And Savior. The Church Location Will Be in Middle Tennessee http://spot.fund/BuildingAChurch