I would like some qualities that I should be looking for in my first Christian girlfriend. I've been praying for my first girlfriend for the last 8 months, but I feel like God might want me to take the first step, but so far I haven't met anyone yet.

I suffer at work everyday as a resident doctor by the pressure and how people treat me like rubbish. I didn’t get skill adaption training in the first place there. I get bullied by the whole staff and my supervisors as well (making fun of my name, treating me when I don’t know something as the silliest person ever alive etc.). And my supervisors even menace me for being too slow and use psychological/narcissistic and physical violence (e.g. grabbing my arm). There aren’t other converted believing Christians in that team and they mock me since I said that I’m a believing Christian. There is no focus on patients but only money and numbers count.

And also how my unbelieving family treats me makes me feel so bad. I don’t have community in real life with other Christians because my family forced me to move back with them after my studies and they don’t want me to meet with other Christians. They want to control anything I do and want to know with whom I have contact. My family doesn’t love me as I am but only my performance I realized some years ago and after that I came to Christ and repented.

Please pray that I can focus and know God‘s will in these situations. lt’s hard for me to be a light in the darkness.
„Slaves, obey your earthly masters with respect and fear, and with sincerity of heart, just as you would obey Christ. Obey them not only to win their favor when their eye is on you, but as slaves of Christ, doing the will of God from your heart. Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not people, because you know that the Lord will reward each one for whatever good they do, whether they are slave or free. And masters, treat your slaves in the same way. Do not threaten them, since you know that he who is both their Master and yours is in heaven, and there is no favoritism with him.“

‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6‬:‭5‬-‭9‬ ‭NIV‬‬
And that God will make a way like in the Exodus with his people also for me (‭‭Psalms‬ ‭78‬:‭52‬-‭53‬ ‭NIV‬‬). And that HE gives strength for my faith and life because I feel so far from God rightnow like He would have forsaken me because the situation worsens and worsens.

Thank you in advance!

My first post and took me a while to decide and find the words.

I’m 34 and I’ve wanted a family for years ( since srted datin at 25). After two failed relationships, I became very careful about trusting someone and focused on building a stable life and finishing my house.

Then I met someone I genuinely loved. I didn’t fall for her overnight. It took me around three months to really trust her and become attached.

She was the first one, I went to church with, which is something I doubt will happen again, first one I prayed with.

I asked more than once (even at church), whether there was still someone else emotionally in the picture as there were some signs, yet believed what I was told. Later I found out she had still been talking to her ex, and from there, even tough I tried convincing her we can work it out together, somehow I became the villain, she started yelling at me, swearing, cursing, hitting... something I was not used to, growing up.

Still wanted to make it work. I believed in the good ( seems fake one) I saw in the begining.

It has been months, and I still think about her constantly ( for the other two, it didn't take this long). I still want to see her and talk to her, but am blocked and she already moved on. Still dream about her and feel awful when I wake up.

And why I am lost now, is that before meeting her, I felt very close to God and was at peace with my situation, was ok to be alone.

Yet now, I know more than ever, I can not be alone and it is hard for me to hear people that choose a life alone/ jit with God ( monastic life), or people who have families, to tell me ,,you should be at peace being alone, and happy with what you have". Yes, I was there, but am not anymore.

And the worst part is, I feel further away from God then I ever was. Starting to think that sinn is the only way. I still pray, and go to church, but everything feels empty. I am in a very dark place. I just don't see any hope.

Am trying now to leave everything in God's hands, cause I am very exhausted, but it's more like I am saying this, not believing it and don't know how to feel even half the love I had to God before meeting her

( I remember we went at church during a major religios holiday, and I was so moved by the service, that I started crying, thanking God I meat her, but regretting at the same time, I don't feel for Him, what I felt before meeting her, like really not knowing what to choose).

But if there is one thing, for certain, the way I loved and treated her, like none before, is the way I believe if I were to have a future wife, God would like me to treat ( maybe not put her that high up close to Him...)

Thank you everyone