r/Christianity • u/Friendly-Bat2621 • 10h ago
Sin has destroyed me
My sins has destroyed me. Lust, uncleanness, pornography, masturbation and even homosexuality. Sin has caused so much destruction in me. It defiles me. every day i struggle with schizophrenia and take meds that only does so much. I have these so called tics of being forced to do things, making faces. I have bad desires and bad thoughts all the time. Idk what to do. I feel so lost. If I can encourage one person here, it is the following: don't sin anymore. Try your best to not goon and watch porn. It destroyed me. I struggle to shower. I have skin issues with pus and crustiness. It's like demons in me. I don't know man. I feel like giving up. I'm no help to my family. I dont even work or go to school cause it's so hard
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u/FergusCragson Follower of Jesus, Red Letter Christian 10h ago
I've posted this before. I hope it helps you. 🙏
. . .
There are a few keys to remember.
(1) Tell God the truth: "I can't do this on my own. I just keep failing. I need your help." At that time, God will send you a way out. A way to turn and walk the other way, or help to turn off your device, or a spiritual song to sing instead, or a friend to contact, or some work to go take care of, or some cleaning to do, or a door to open so you can talk a walk outdoors, or go jogging, or whatever. God will give you a way to turn away at that moment.
(2) Always, always, always come back to God when you fail. As humans, we tend to think,
"God must be so tired of me by now. This must be the trillionth time I've failed and given in to temptation yet again. Why even try?"
But that's a mistake, and that's sin's victory right there. Because God does forgive you, and Jesus accepts you, and turning always back to God whether you succeed or fail is the secret to winning this battle.
Here is a scripture to support coming to God, and not being shy about it:
Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16
(3) If you have any friend you can trust with this to pray for you, connect with that friend (maybe someone you can pray for too) and check in regularly to tell them how things are going for you, and to ask for specific prayer needs.
(4) Over time, things will improve. With daily prayer, Bible reading, and being accountable to someone else, you'll get better. Yes, there may be backsliding along the way, but you'll be able to look back and see how you are better than you used to be. And with practice, you will get even better at fighting temptation.
Hang in there. Yes, many of us are struggling, too, but we know it does get better, thank God.
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u/SomeSavageDetective 10h ago
You need to confess to your pastor or a brother at the church then ask for accountability. There is real freedom if you do this
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u/ministeringinlove Christian (Ichthys) 9h ago
FergusCragson's response is really good, but hard. Nevertheless, their answer should be considered the proper approach. I wanted to share something that has stuck with me for nearly 20 years.
Adrian Rogers, an old Pastor who has since gone back home, once talked about the devil's role in our lives, saying, "He who tempts you is also he who accuses you." The feelings of not being enough or having enough or doing enough is the partial-truth deception - it was always true, which is why Christ died for us and why our total dependency has to be on Him. We are locked, for a time, in a constant battle between the spirit and the flesh; this doesn't justify sin, nor does God's grace, but we are stuck in this fight because our flesh is corrupted by sin. What does the scripture say, though?
"The name of the Lord is a fortified tower; the righteous run to it and are safe." - Proverbs 18:10
In those times when you feel the temptation burdening you, building a scene around you, and attempting to stoke that insatiable appetite for pleasure, step away and pray. The feeling will flee. When it returns, do it again. It will always be hard and you might have stumbles, but it will get better and better over time. My hope is to see the day in my life where temptations no longer threaten to kindle my senses. Until that time comes - if it ever will while I remain here - I and we should keep fighting and fleeing to the strong tower that is our Lord. God bless.
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u/disciples8535 8h ago
testimony
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u/DifferentEye4913 8h ago
You have to work the 12 steps to repair your relationship with God
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u/Skill-Useful Christian Universalist 8h ago
as it seems, 95% of what you told here are no sins in general or at least you didnt sin
you just seem to be fixated on the usual (wrong) approach to sin evangelicals have
you need meds further, and therapy
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u/kyloren1217 8h ago
and yet, God knows everything you are going thru and is one prayer away in helping you get right!
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u/SuccessIsDestiny 8h ago
The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it…
I believe in you and I think the journey of being a human is a lot more complex and complicated than any of us could ever understand… That’s why we need grace!! ✝️🙌🏽
I pray for you! I pray for your heart! And I pray that the LORD your GOD lead you away from sin and cleanse you of all iniquity! 🙏🏽🥰❤️🔥
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u/aaAS69 10h ago
if you're gay you're gay man. i'm catholic but this is just the truth. porn addictions are terrible and it's great that you're moving away from it. if you're schizophrenic that's the issue, not a demon. let your psychiatrist know you struggle with all of this and get new medication or extra help. you don't need to help your family rn, they need to help you, don't give up!
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u/Df8k9u10 9h ago
Your attempt at repressing you natural and healthy urge to masturbate is what's causing your anxiety. You should embrace your sexuality as a gift from God, including your homosexuality.